Nurses struggling with mental illness - page 53

I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major... Read More

  1. by   Fuzzy
    Well I'm not fairing well on the geodon. I've been having some really strange dreams along with some really strange feelings. What's worse is that the therapist I was seeing quit and didn't tell anyone until the last moment. (ididn't know about it until I showed up to my appointment and she wasn't there) The nurse practicioner that I see is out of town until after the first of the year. So I'm stuck. I feel like I'm on a sinking island. I don't know whether to stand up and shout or sit down and cry. Either way I want this to stop.

    Fuzzy
  2. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from Fuzzy
    Well I'm not fairing well on the geodon. I've been having some really strange dreams along with some really strange feelings. What's worse is that the therapist I was seeing quit and didn't tell anyone until the last moment. (ididn't know about it until I showed up to my appointment and she wasn't there) The nurse practicioner that I see is out of town until after the first of the year. So I'm stuck. I feel like I'm on a sinking island. I don't know whether to stand up and shout or sit down and cry. Either way I want this to stop.

    Fuzzy
    FUZZY that is horrid!

    Try your local crisis hotline # and see if there is a clinic you can go to for urgent care in the meantime. You really need to be monitored. How cruel that no on notified you until you showed up!!! GRR...
  3. by   mustlovepoodles
    Well, I want to say thanks for letting me "talk". It did help for me to get things down in print and look at my feelings more objectively. I realized that my priorities have been upside-down. I have been putting all my energy into my work (I'm a middle school nurse). My DH and DS13 require more & more assistance. And nothing is left for me. I'm All Caregiving, All The Time.

    In the past week my husband became very ill and spent 6 days in CCU with pericarditis--he came home late Christmas Day. He had two "events" while he was there and I realized all over again just how fragile is his health. It's like the frog in the stewpot--you swim around in the water adjusting to the warmth and by the time you realize the danger it's too late!

    I came to the conclusion that I need to take leave of absence. I'll go in and clean out my desk when school opens. I plan to take LOA initially, but my real intention is to not go back at all. I'm still not regulated on my meds and I find myself just falling more and more behind. I'm still struggling with depression and concentration. And I've had to admit out loud that I simply cannot "do it all". Very hard for me. I've been able to power through any obstacle I've ever had, but I cannot seem to work through this. DH is going to be chronically ill and disabled for the remainder of his life. DS13 will be severely mentally disabled for the remainder of his life. I will always have bipolar disorder. And while all these things are managable, I have to admit that the combination is overwhelming to me now. So I think perhaps some time at home will be therapeutic for us all.
  4. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from mustlovepoodles
    Well, I want to say thanks for letting me "talk". It did help for me to get things down in print and look at my feelings more objectively. I realized that my priorities have been upside-down. I have been putting all my energy into my work (I'm a middle school nurse). My DH and DS13 require more & more assistance. And nothing is left for me. I'm All Caregiving, All The Time.
    Sounds like in the end it was not a hard decision to make! God bless you hon, I am sorry you are going thru hard times, but so glad that you came by, what is it, joy shared is doubled, trouble shared is halved?

    Let us know how things are going! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

    xo
  5. by   Mariposa88
    I haven't been able to read the whole thread (its 68 pages long!) but I am a nursing student with a mental illness. I have major depression, PTSD, and an eating disorder. I'm doing fairly well with the depression and PTSD, and the eating disorder is off and on, but becoming a nurse is one thing that motivates me, I know I have to be healthy to be a good nurse, and to survive nursing school. I have been hospitalized many times, and I have to say it was the nurses that helped me the most, whether it be the psych or med nurses. That's part of the reason I decided to be a nurse.
    Some people think I can't do it, but I know I can. Has anyone else dealt with this?
  6. by   Mariposa88
    mustlovepoodles-

    sounds like it was a hard decision, but congrats on taking care of you, i know that can be hard.
  7. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from Mariposa88
    I haven't been able to read the whole thread (its 68 pages long!) but I am a nursing student with a mental illness. I have major depression, PTSD, and an eating disorder. I'm doing fairly well with the depression and PTSD, and the eating disorder is off and on, but becoming a nurse is one thing that motivates me, I know I have to be healthy to be a good nurse, and to survive nursing school. I have been hospitalized many times, and I have to say it was the nurses that helped me the most, whether it be the psych or med nurses. That's part of the reason I decided to be a nurse.
    Some people think I can't do it, but I know I can. Has anyone else dealt with this?
    Nice to meet you, I love your positive attitude! Stick around And good luck w/ school! xo
  8. by   Jean1313
    Hi,

    I just want to say that now I know I'm not alone. I went to see a therapist, and cried when she brought up the possibility of meds. And I used to be a Psych nurse! I never judged anyone else for being on them.

    And I agree that I would never put that information where any employer could find it either, physicals etc.

    Best wishes for a healthy new year to all.
  9. by   moe1802
    I so agree. The minute another nurse hears that you are mentally ill, it's like you have the plague. The assistant
    director refered to another patient as crazy looked at me then used a more politically correct term. I gave it up at
    work one day that I was bipolar when I was depressed. I don't really regret it though. I'm tired of keeping it a
    secret. It wasn't my fault that I ended up being bipolar.
  10. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from moe1802
    I so agree. The minute another nurse hears that you are mentally ill, it's like you have the plague. The assistant
    director refered to another patient as crazy looked at me then used a more politically correct term. I gave it up at
    work one day that I was bipolar when I was depressed. I don't really regret it though. I'm tired of keeping it a
    secret. It wasn't my fault that I ended up being bipolar.
    It is a mixed blessing. Nice not to have to hide but there are those who will give you a hard time.
  11. by   Babs0512
    I lost all my credibility 4 years ago after my diagnosis. It's a small hospital, talk gets around. There were some behavioral issues with me prior to the diagnosis, but even then, people respected me. I was a "senior" member in the ER, did charge a lot.

    Now I work PACU, can't even get a full time position - unless I want to go back to med surg nights, that would wreak havoc on my insomnia issues.

    It's a shame that those in the medical profession, stop caring when it's one of their own. For me is depression, PTSD, anxiety, and "functional agoraphobia" - I laugh at that one. I haven't been to a grocery store or drug store in years, hubby goes for me - holiday parties, NO WAY, can't look for another job because the closest hospital is nearly an hour away, I can barely drive around town, no way can I start over somewhere else. I'm not that far into my recovery.

    Anyhow, good luck to everyone with a psyc diagnosis. I hope your place of employement is more supportive than mine.

    Blessings to all
  12. by   Fuzzy
    The veterinary field must be more compassionate. Maybe it's because we work with beings that can't talk and tell us where it hurts. Several years ago I was involuntarily committed to the state hospital. My boss showed up to the hearing along with two of my co-workers. When I got out, my job was waiting for me. Everyone was happy to have me back although it was hard for awhile. I have to say that everyone has been supportive of my problems and I don't let the bipolar become an excuse either.

    There have been times that I have been tempted to go to nursing school mostly because of the pay and benefits. However, whenever I read about the lack of support that nurses have in the workplace, I change my mind. I now undertand why there is a nursing shortage. People who are treated badly will play somewhere else. People learn quickly that maney and benefits aren't everything. A caring supportive environment is what will keep people in the field. Right now, I'll continue to be the best certifed veterinary technician that I can be...bipolar or not.

    Fuzzy
  13. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from Babs0512
    It's a shame that those in the medical profession, stop caring when it's one of their own.
    Quote from Fuzzy
    The veterinary field must be more compassionate.
    Very sad statements on the profession for sure. At the same time they don't want me in full mania taking care of their patients. They have to have some way to be sure I'm safe to take care of their people. There is no real screening or monitoring process in place. Privacy laws and HIPPA and all that, they can't really find anything out. So they end up blanketly saying "forget about it" if they do know.

    Wish there was some way - to protect my livelihood - and to protect my patients should I become unaware I am incapacitated. Ya know?

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