NP in TNPAP story

[blackpear1981-MSN]

I am currently in TNPAP after a complaint was filed against me license by a previous employer. My issue was mental health related and I had an episode at work, the complaint was frivolous and here I am today stuck to do four more years in TNPAP. I dropped out of the program due to financial and family issues and when I rejoined they hit me with five years monitoring. The BON was notified of me dropping TNPAP and my license was placed on suspension. Wish I had known what I knew now and had stayed in to do my original three. Cause my issue was not drug or alcohol related I’m tested every quarter and have no narc restrictions. I’m eligible for reinstatement next fall 2022 and will utilize my lawyer for that process to ensure I have a fair chance. I’m a Nurse Practitioner and will eventually apply for recertification in 2023 I’m scared of losing my credentials at this point. I’m glad to see I’m not alone on this journey but wanted to share my story to help someone else. 

[bebe1138]

I was reading some of your posts and felt like sharing. I was in TNPAP and I left before my contract was done. I was a complete f-up. I always seemed to make decisions that leave me at the mercy of fate or destined to fail from the get- go. I quit after facing another positive drug test. Does it really matter that it was for alcohol and my drug of choice was dilaudid. (I purposefully did not capitalize) I had to face that the reason I was diverting dilaudid was deeper than just getting high. For me, it was a combination of my ADD and issues from being molested as a child. I'm still working through it, but finally as I approach my 50's I can finally name the beast so to speak. I do not have my RN license anymore. I am working on becoming a happy healthy human, then mother, then wife, then nurse. I still have a calling to care for others. For the time being, I am the one most in need, so there my focus lies. For me, my drug use/ abuse/ diversion was a symptom. I am still considering coming back to nursing but I have found a job that has few demands and pays the bills. It gives me time and space to work on me. I don't want to sound somber but I'm a little bipolar and even keel is a good thing in my world. I'm a healthier person now, than when I was using. My journey was long and very personal. I would never want to tell someone how their recovery should go. I just wanted to say something since I have the experience and things are going OK.