Not sure how long I can do this

[Toaster2k18]

Hello,

I am LPN worked primarily in nursing home and vaccination clinic. I am on my last year for BSN degree. I have preceptored clinicals in Oncology unit right now. I never had full patient load in my previous years and this year my preceptor gave me 4 patients at nights, normal for a charge nurse to have.

All I can say is, I am exhausted, mentally and physically. I have been feeling this way since last year but I managed to get through. I dread going to placement. I feel incompetent because my physical assessments are not good, I forget x and y. I don’t know how they realistic expect me to do full head to toe assessment on 4 patients within x amount of timeframe. I feel like every shift I am taking a step back rather than improving. I feel horrible. My preceptor is supportive but darn, I am disappointing her.

Just need encouragement or support… I know this is my last year but holy hell, I don’t know how much I got left in me. I don’t even know if I want to do bedside.

[Tprofitt, BSN]

You know, I think when you are done, you should just look for a department that better suits you. It’s okay to not like something, or not be good at it. I moved around a bit in different bedside positions till I found something that I liked. Like me, I’m at work charting my 7am assessment right now. In did it earlier, now I have time to sit and do it. Actually being on the phone right now is cutting into that time LOL. Just keep your head up, and do the best you can. It’s almost over.