It was a sad sad night - page 2
I lost my first little one last night. It was much harder than I thought is was going to be. I have been his primary nurse since he was born and gotten to know mommy really well. It really hasn't... Read More
Aug 19, '02Joined: Oct '01; Posts: 9,619; Likes: 14,055I'm so sorry. Years from now, your NICU successes will fade from memory, but the babies you have lost will remain vivid. I truly believe that these precious souls are just too tiny and fragile for us to heal. Only God in Heaven can make them well and whole. It seems like there is so little you can do, but that is not so. Your caring and compassion for the parents will sustain them in the worst time of their lives, and will never be forgotten. I have never lost a child of my own, but I did experience the loss of a desperately wanted pregnancy. The care of my wonderful doctor and the nursing staff made all the difference in the world to me.
Allow yourself to grieve. If possible, spend a few days caring for stable growers and feeders and do a discharge or two. Sometimes it helps to remind ourselves that we do, indeed, make it possible for countless families to welcome home healthy babies.
Aug 19, '02Occupation: RN, MSN student Joined: Mar '02; Posts: 1,223; Likes: 1(((((Heather)))))
I don't work with babies, but having a son ... I just couldn't imagine. Take some time to grieve, learn, & grow from this experience. Hugs to you. Kitty
Aug 20, '02Joined: May '01; Posts: 2,979; Likes: 7Heather,
I don't have any words of wisdom to add, just wanted you to know that I'm sending you a cyberhug and positive energy....
You are a special person to do what you do.
Aug 20, '02Occupation: once a manager, now a staff nurse, preceptor, educator and practice member Specialty: 30 year(s) of experience in NICU, PICU, PACU ; From: FAM ; Joined: Mar '01; Posts: 2,797; Likes: 3,172It is hard to lose a baby you have cared for since they were born. The big kids bother me way more than the itsy bitsy ones..I know that sounds harsh, but sometimes they just weren't meant to be and you have to think about 10 years from now what this little one would turn out like. We get alot of long term gut kids and those are the ones that really get me!
Aug 20, '02Occupation: NICU RN Joined: Oct '00; Posts: 2,537; Likes: 369Originally posted by NicuGal
It is hard to lose a baby you have cared for since they were born. The big kids bother me way more than the itsy bitsy ones..