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Joined: Mar 18, '12; Posts: 5 (60% Liked) ; Likes: 19
RN; from US
Specialty: 4 year(s) of experience in Long term care

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    Does anyone know if there is financial aid for recovering nurses (Idaho)? I desperately need help. My bank account has a negative balance, I will lose my house by the end of the month if I can't pay rent. Utilities are behind and shutting down. I can't even afford the gas to get to my evaluation, let alone the fees per visit.

    Any info would be greatly appreciated :bowingpur

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    barrettrn1, fayet, noahsmama, and 5 others like this.

    Everything IS going to be ok. I share your pain. The two things in my life that I was the most proud of are being a nurse and mom. Feeling like a failure as a mom was the most difficult aspect of my addiction. My daughter, 12, asked why I was so hard on myself. I said I still hate myself for what I've done and the pain I've caused. She said, "My brother (8) and I have forgiven you, why can't you forgive yourself." When the hell did kids get so smart?

    Your daughter will never see you as a failure. She doesn't care about what has happened. All she knows is you are her mother, and nothing will take that away.

    This is the day my sobriety was set in stone. I came home after having a horrible day, sick of people trashing me as a nurse and a mom. Above the sink was a paper plate that my daughter wrote on.

    Mom, no matter what anyone says to you or about you I will always love you. You will always be my mother. I don't care what bad is said, I will always love you.

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    I was very excited to find out I was getting a nursing student. It felt great to go from being a student to teaching one. I had met this gal before. She was one of the most sweet and kind beople I had ever met. The kind of nice that if you kicked her, she would apalogize for being in the way of your foot. When she told me who she chose as a patient, it took everything I had to keep a straight face. I got to know this patient when I was a student. I was able to distract my student with labs, and I ran to speak with my lady. (She hated being referred to as a patient, so I called her my lady.) I told her she was getting a student nurse and begged her to be nice. The evil grin appeared.

    My lady led a very rough lifestyle. She was a former prostitute and IV drug user. She had hep C, ESRD on dialysis, quick wit, and a dark sense of humor. She was one of my favorite people of all time. Once I told her I was a recovering alcoholic, there was an instant bond.

    I warned the student that my lady was "rough around the edges", but a great person to learn from. I stood outside of the room, and to my surprise, my lady was being nice, tolerating nursing student questions well. Then the student began "educating" my lady on her lifestyle. I thought , oh no, but she sat back and listened to how dangerous drugs and prostitution were. I froze, I didn't have time to intervine. She picked up her hairbrush and said, "Well, I guess everything comes at a price, I used to be the highest paid hooker out there." The trap was set. The student asked, "Why is that?" My lady replied, "Cuz I ain't got no teeth." Then bit down on her hairbrush handle. I stepped in and told my student I needed help with somehing. She gladly ran out.

    She freaked out! She probably thinks I was judging her. I told her that she was just messing with her. Two years ago I was the student "educating" her. Her response to me was, "OMG!! You're telling me that by hundreds of men sticking their ----- in my ---- I could get a disease? Wished I knew that before. I'm not as f-----g stupid as you look!"

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    Brown cow per rectum Q4H prn. Milk and molasses enema

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    &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&n bsp; "I had so much pride, overcoming the obstacles of my youth and being the first person in my family to graduate college and now I feel like the lowest of the low and that my life has no value. I guess I put all my identity and self-worth into being a Registered Nurse.&nbsp;"......<br><br>Your current situation doesn't take away any of your accomplishments.&nbsp; It doesn't matter if you have the title RN or not, you are still that person.&nbsp; Nothing can change that.<br>

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    bearrn88, SororAKS, Nola009, and 3 others like this.

    "I had so much pride, overcoming the obstacles of my youth and being the first person in my family to graduate college and now I feel like the lowest of the low and that my life has no value. I guess I put all my identity and self-worth into being a Registered Nurse. "......

    Your current situation doesn't take away any of your accomplishments. It doesn't matter if you have the title RN or not, you are still that person. Nothing can change that.

    I understand where you're coming from. I recently surrendered my license. As I let go of the letter, I burst into tears. The last piece of my identity was gone. I have no idea who the hell I am. Later I realized that a nursing license is similar to a marriage license. It's a piece of paper that means nothing. Surrendering my license didn't change anything about me. I'm still that person that is determined and faught like hell to GET that license in the first place.



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