Published Mar 6, 2008
brwnsuga83
111 Posts
"FAIL" again...I don't think I want to do this anymore. Ever since Nursing school I gave my all in my classes, struggled but still graduated with honors and got inducted to Sigma Theta Tau and sacrificed soooooooo much. After graduating I sacrificed my summer and studied, studied, and failed. After that, I took a 2 month break and got back at it, had no life and put my family and boyfriend through this emotional rollercoaster called "NCLEX". They were stressed out because I was stressed out and they wanted to see me pass and move on with my life. My boyfriend spend almost $200 for my day at the spa yesterday because he wanted to reward me for my hard work, I didn't think I deserved it because I hoped I passed but something told me I failed and guess what? I did. Maybe I'm not meant to be a Nurse and I WILL NOT PUT MY LIFE ON HOLD ANYMORE FOR THE NCLEX. I'm sad, I'm mad, and I'm frustrated! I HATE studying for this and I'm tired of it. I know there are many people in my situation and many who didn't give up but this is crazy! I have no way of having loan forgiveness because I am not working and I have deffered my loans because I can't pay for any of them. I only work 12 hrs a week for what?! for the damn NCLEX-RN! I'm really sick of this. I enjoy writing and I have put that off, I have put off modeling (I lost my six-pack b/c of studying), I have put off enjoying life. I guess I should have known in nursing school that I shouldn't have continued in the Nursing program and I should have majored in English with a creative writing concentration instead of minoring in it. I'm crying but I'm more angry than sad right now, and I'm sure it'll be the other way around once I tell my family:scrying:
Silverdragon102, BSN
1 Article; 39,477 Posts
((((Hugs)))) Hang in there and take a few days/weeks to recover. Sorry you failed but it is just a hurdle and I am sure you will pass it one day. It took me 3 attempts before I passed and you see posts of others who have taken it many times so please don't give up
THANKS
kremlin
19 Posts
Hey brwn..I just want to say that it's OK. And yeah I know how you feel about just letting go of life, letting go of having fun, being someone without a life just because of this darn exam and totally letting go and sacrificing the simple leizures of going out, having fun and enjoying yourself. I live in Vegas so it's total torture for me. I have friends who always ask me when I'm ever going to have time to go out and get over this exam so it's total torture for me. I also feel as if I have my life on hold just b/c of this and it's getting frustrating. There are countless times I feel like throwing away this book cuz I'm so sick of seeing it and failing as well. I'm on my third time taking the test, and trying to get back in gear again after yet again my second failed attempt in passing just recently. I try and think of the happy things that will happen after I pass..the hard work that I put in while I was at school..clincals, long nights of studying, cramming for exams..etc. I also think about the rewards that will come after all my hard work. Everything worth keeping in life, along with success truley demands time and sacrifice in order to attain. But if you think Nursing is not for you..personally I would suggest taking a breather. Get your thots in order, take some time off from the stress and get back to it again..just think why would you spend 4 years of Nursing School to give up now? Be strong and take it again..don't waste this great opportunity. Once you pass your exam and have had hands held experience in the field and you feel that it's not for you, that's the only time I think that you should pull away. At least you truly know that it isnt for you, since you've experienced being a Nurse. KEEP TRYING, NEVER GIVE UP! I'm not giving up and neither should you. Just give yourself time then get back in the game. Hope this helps.
sg2629
54 Posts
I just want to give you hug. Take a break and let this rest for now. You will know when it is time to get back on the NCLEX wagon. It DOES NOT matter how many times you take the test...what matters is that you will be a nurse that touches people's lives! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
moniqueforever
9 Posts
Hey!! I'm sorry to hear that you failed. I have a suggestion though that helped me. If you have been studying this long you know the content. You should try to focus on relaxation techniques. I know that I worry and panic alot. The thought of a test sends me into an anxiety attack. For NCLEX I learned all the techniques I possibly could about relaxation and breathing techniques that helped me through the test.:bowingpur Look up information about an NCLEX mentor by the name of Paulette Rollant. SHe worked for our school to help prep for the NCLEX. she even gives one on one tutoring. i hope this helps. i wish you the best of luck next time.:wink2:
Jaloc
42 Posts
Take a break, get your mind clear and then get back in here with all these great folks. We're all in nursing together and if nursing is what you really want we'll be there for you. Just remember there are many, many people that have taken this anxiety driven test and finally passed and became great nurses.
llg, PhD, RN
13,469 Posts
Don't put your life on hold for a single exam. In fact, that might be part of the problem. Get a "real job" and start earning some money. Enjoy life a little and lead a healthy lifestyle -- not one consumed with an unhealthy focus on a single measurement.
Review on a "part time basis" and give your mind a chance to integrate the material and put things in perspective. You may find that the less stressful, healthier lifestyle approach leads to greater learning - and higher test scores -- in the long run.
Good luck to you.
Don't put your life on hold for a single exam. In fact, that might be part of the problem. Get a "real job" and start earning some money. Enjoy life a little and lead a healthy lifestyle -- not one consumed with an unhealthy focus on a single measurement.Review on a "part time basis" and give your mind a chance to integrate the material and put things in perspective. You may find that the less stressful, healthier lifestyle approach leads to greater learning - and higher test scores -- in the long run.Good luck to you.
Yes, that is what I will do. I started writing a novel 4 years ago (wrote 5 chapters) and put it on hold for lets see...NURSING SCHOOL. I will be getting back to writing and studying on a part time basis. I will not be consumed in an unhealthy lifestyle of doing nothing but studying. It's stressed me out, distanced me from people, and put my other talents and dreams at bay. NOT ANYMORE! I will pass this test but not at the expense of anything else.
22angie, LPN
31 Posts
Hi I'm a new student but I want to encourage you that it's not that you don't know its just that you is so wind up and scared of failing and thats whats happening. You have too have good thoughts to take these testes. I been trying to get into lpn school for over 2 years. I took the entrance exam and couldn't get pass the english part which always been my weak part but that was my problem I know that it was the part I would have problems with and I did. So I went to a ged school for training and took their test didn't think about passing and I did it I mad that 12.9 but I have to tell myself I can do this its not hard. You have to site your mind to believe that no matter how you feeling "they say mind over matter and its true believe it".
lvlytxn
109 Posts
brownsuga83,
I know what it's like to fail. It was a big disappointment to me. So much so, that I didn't retest after that one time.
Don't let go of your dream!! I did, and now 8 years later, I'm trying to pick up all the pieces. I had to start at square 1 and relearn just about everything...so I understand the part about having no life. Yet, I've been able to squeeze some "me" time into the mix. It's hard to do when I work and have a family to take care of but I had to or else I'd be cuckoo by now.
Take some time for yourself and family. And then hit the books, (not literally), or who knows, that might be a good stress reliever.
Best of luck to us this time around.
ohmeowzer RN, RN
2,306 Posts
i am so sorry you did not pass... i want to send you a big hug. you have every right to feel the way you do. take a break and forget about it for awile. work on our novel do things you enjoy. then down the road abit after you've had a long break think about maybe taking it again. i have a friend that took it and passed on her third ime... you are in my prayers.