:imbar What you are going through is completly normal. I went through it myself and I still go through it. I just graduated May 23, 2004 with an associates degree in nursing. I have asked other classmates of mine if they were feeling the same thing. (They all were!) You are not alone, just ask your classmates. It is a big step toward your future and you want to make sure this is what you want to do, especially putting all your money into school. You have to love what you do, otherwise you'll be miserable.
To answer you questions about getting jobs as a new graduate nurse....not hard at all. I had many offers from several hospitals and I was offered the position at all of them, but even if your not offered the position don't feel bad. A lot of my fellow classmates did not get job offers at first. Go on several interviews to get the interview experience. One thing I did that was different (as I was told by the interviewer) I brought a list of questions and interviewed them, plus a portfolio of all that I have done, letters of recommendation, etc. Make the interview worth your while. The more you ask them questions, the more they know you are interested in the position. Put the ball in your court. I was offered a postion in NICU, L&D, Nursery, ICU, PACU, CCU, and ER. I took the ICU position because my goal is to become a CRNA. There are many options in nursing.
I wish you the best of luck! I am sure after the first couple of semester you will begin to enjoy nursing. I did not like going to the nursing homes and cleaning up poop. I do not have a stomach for it. That was the hardest thing for me. I am sensitive to that smell, but anything else....I love it! I love invasive stuff. Why don't you call your local hospital and talk with a head nurse on the unit of your liking and see if you can shadow an RN for a day. I have done that myself. Good Luck!