Nurse with Suspended License needs Job!

  1. Hello everyone,

    I was a critical care/emergency room/IV Team nurse; I had my nurse's license suspended for 3 years, as of April 2005. I became addicted to percocet and dilaudid after a compliction of ulcerative colitis in Spring 2003 called "toxic megacolon"...shortly after a difficult hospitalization, I returned to work way before I was ready (because I am a single parent of 3 without a boyfriend/rich parents/generous friends, etc.) I began to steal percocet and dilaudid from the ER, where I had been working for the past 12 years...I turned myself in to my nurse manager because i was absolutely terrified about my addiction, plus I felt so guilty about the stealing. I also reported myself to the Pennsylvania Voluntary Recovery Program for Professional Nurses. My caseworker decided that I could return to work, after 9 months (I had attended rehab fulltime, got help from an addiction specialist and psychiatrist, adhered to the 5-6 times/month urine drug testing at a cost of $48 to $89 a test, attended NA/AA meeting 3-4x/week and 2 professional support meetings a week, etc). I returned to work part-time, on the IV Team at the same hospital, but because the work was only part-time, and my older kids were starting college/needed cars, etc, I attempted to find a second job. I looked in case managment, nurse liason, etc, but was unable to find a second job which did not involve narcotics...out of desperation, I chose to work for two staffing agencies, doing prn emergency room nursing (i did not notify the VRP, which went against my contract) I was clean for 9 months, then OF COURSE I began to use/steal narcotics again for my personal use; this time, I was caught and reported to the VRP/Nuring Board; that is why my license was suspended. Anyway, I STILL have to support my family, and I have been searching for a job since April, with no success...I am so scared and alone, I would appreciate any help whatsoever-any suggestions, anything! I feel so very close to suicide (although I could never do that to my kids!)Does anyone know of anyone else that this happened to (who does not have husband/parents/rich person to help him/her?) thanks, frannie
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  3. by   SFCardiacRN
    God Bless You. You MUST go to NA and AA. They will save your life. You must go often and regularly. The next time you get caught, you will lose your license permanantly. It is WAY too early for you to be around drugs.
  4. by   Thunderwolf
    i am very sorry to hear what has happened to you. this is a terrible situation that you need to stay on top of. stay connected to your treatment team and your bon to guide you through this. although this is a nursing board, we are not a medical or legal advice board...and are unable to offer it. hope things improve on your end. stay the straight and narrow course.

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  5. by   Jessy_RN
    Welcome to the site, enjoy your stay and best wishes to you!
  6. by   NikkiChan
    I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I have a pretty terrible story myself. But to make it short my license has been suspended for one year. After reading some of these stories, I feel lucky. I tried to stay on as a CNA at the hospital where I'd been working for about a year but they said my co-workers would ask too many questions and that it was not in my best interest, bla..bla..bla.. So I'm stuck. I feell like I'm having to start all over. Looking for a job, etc.. but just for a year. I'm really afraid that it is going to be very difficult to find a job now and in a year when I have to apply under TPAPN stipulations. Right now I am awaiting instruction from the BON. I think I may have to do an inpatient program so I want to get that out of the way first and start the ball rolling to get this over with. This is going to be the most humiliating thing I've ever gone through. I too am very alone and it's hard to make new friends under these circumstances. I feel like a burden. But you have to stay strong. Depend on yourself!! I thought of doing an EMT 3 mo program and working as an EMT for a little while. Maybe that would interest you. Well, still thinking about what I am going to do. Just wanted you to know your not alone and I will keep you posted with ideas, thoughts, etc... Keep your head up. I will keep you in my prayers. Also, try this website or try Nurses in Recovery. They were just suggested to me - I havn't even tried them yet. Good Luck.

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