Hi fellow nurses in recovery!
I used to come to this forum quite a bit when I was going through my six years of license probation that has left me with a permanent black mark. My state never lets us evil addicts off the hook so my career was destroyed although I've been clean for close to 15 years.
For several years, I have managed to get enough contract/per diem work to survive in spite of having crippling knee arthritis and no health insurance.
Anyway, I had recently applied for another contract, on call type job to add to my "collection" and just this morning got the door slammed in my face because of my "black mark."
The weird thing is that I am not as emotionally upset about this as I normally would be. When I got the email, I mentally shrugged and even responded to it, saying that I know the HR person couldn't care less but wanted them to know that my "crime" happened once 20 years ago. I mentioned that it was because of the medical condition of addiction.
Maybe, just maybe, after all these years, I am retaining some sense of self worth in spite of what my state has done to me professionally.
I personally think that it's a miracle I am alive after all I have endured. This hatred of addicts is a HUGE component of why an average if 130 people die of an opiate overdose every day!
Thanks for reading. You guys get it, even if non-addicts have no clue.
Catmom :paw: