I really appreciate your advice. It's nice to know my feelings are justified, but I need to brush it off a little more.
Since then I approached her to go over my exams before the final. She again said my paperwork was unacceptable, but can see I spend a long time to improve and wants to go over things c me. At first I was like, "Here we go again." But I was goingt o tell her how I felt in the utmost professional manner. We sat down after lecture and she showed me what I was doing wrong. They're the most simple mistakes. Here I'm writing my nurs. dx/goal and I'm not being specific for the following nurse to fullfill successfully. I was saying my pt. had altered tissue perfusion, but wanted to administer O2...? I was getting the dx. confused and thought because Sparks and Taylor or Doenges had such great interventions c that dx, they MUST be appropriate. Not so. I was understanding the first part, the last but not the middle. I understand veins and arteries, but not the best interventions for venous occlusions...
My instructor asked me why I put certain things down and I answered honestly. I felt like she was again putting me on the spot, but I looked at her and saw she wanted to help despite she seriousness. We went over things and I realize my paperwork shouldn't be taking me 4 hours to complete. It's much easier. See I notice that I look at things to intensly. The answer is right there, but I can't imagine it's be so simple, so I make a mountain of out a molehill.
I said I'd re-do my paperwork and showed her the next morning. She said they were excellent and perfect. I was psyched! We went over my last 4 exams and the same thing-answer right there, chose something else b/c I didn't believe they'd have such an obvious answer. I also figured out that I'm a "hans on" learner. Tha's why I'm good at clinical and at work. I can handle the pressure, but ask me outright to list facts and I'm blank. Now I read the chapter c the tables and pics to help and magine myself doing it on the floor. If I have to practice c my lab bag I will.
I'm so glad I found this site. I tell everyone about it at work and school. Thanks again for the awesome advice. It's comfortingt o hear others c similar probems...err opportunities..lol It's also nice to have some TCT done to me for once!