I'm graduating next month, as I know a lot of other people here are as well, and I'm just wondering if anyone else is PANICKING or freaking out about it?! I have been in a slump for the longest time. I get panic attacks, I cry, and I DREAD my preceptorship days. I feel totally and completely inadequate and like I will not make it as a nurse. I am constantly second guessing and doubting myself... this is really crappy way to feel!!! Is this normal???
I absolutely HATE my preceptorship. We have had 3 weeks (next week being the last) to do 80 hours. Due to family issues I only got 48 hours done in two weeks and now the next 3 days: Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, I will be doing 32 HOURS!! 32 hours in 3 days. I will be so dead. Not to mention I hate the experience, I hate the hospital and I don't really like the nurses either. Especially the one that I will have tomorrow for 12 hours. This competely ruined my weekend because I absolutely am dreading Monday. Of course, this leads to more panic that if I really hate this, THIS MUCH, how am I going to be a nurse????? 12 hour days KILL ME!!! Also, Thursday after I am done my 3 days of 32 hours I have a job interview at the one and only hospital I want to work at, at 10am. I hope I don't fall asleep on the poor woman's desk. Usually on the day after I put time in at the hospital I sleep ALL day. It exhausts me. I also have tons of schoolwork to do that I am behind on but I can't get my butt motivated. Because of this preceptorship all I have done is sleep and go to the hospital, come home and sleep some more, and go back. I'm just really freaking out about everything. School was such a comfort zone, it was so easy to hide behind the label of "student nurse", but now I will be the NURSE and I'll need to be able to do and know everything. I'm used to saying "I don't know, let me get the nurse" or "Hold on I'll go get your nurse"... now it will be like I AM THE NURSE!!!
Is this just happening to me? Please reassure me, someone.