This could get long, so please bare with me. I am in my first semester of a five semester ADN program in Houston TX. I have been lurking here at Allnurses for about three years. I have learned so much from all of you about nursing, Thank you! Going part time, often one class at a time, over the past three years, I have taken and completed all of my pre-reqs and academics worked into the program. To my astonishment, after completing Pharm over the summer, I was accepted into a nursing program! I was so excited. I thought back to all the times/posts that I had read when other people were accepted and here I was, I was one of you! It was a great feeling to know that I was one of the many people that are looked at for acceptance. I was in the clouds, just so very proud of myself for reaching this goal! And I still am...
Six weeks into my fundamentals and a week away from clinicals starting and I am so desperatly disgusted with how this program is ran. Everyday is a serious cluster ___deleted______We are constantly bombarded with idea that "Flexability" is the key to nursing but please...isn't there a line. It just seems like my school is so unorganized and I am not sure who knows which way is up. One of the hard parts is having to bear witness to all of it. Yesterday for instance, we had our lab on wound care, first we watch a video, then we are sent down to the lab. We get to the lab and the director of the clinicals is trying to do a demonstration on wound care. At the same time three other instructors are walking in and out of the lab talking and laughing. Keep in mind we have sixty students in our class and we are squeezed into a lab capable of accomodated maybe 25 students. Our uniforms had been delivered and instead of someone taking control and splitting the group up, one group for uniform pick-up and the other for practice skills, our clinical instructor is constantly interrupted by these inconsiderate instructors waltizing in and out of the room. One of these instructors will jump at calling out and kicking anyone out of her class if they walk in five minutes late. In these instances she is more of an interuption than any of the students who quietly walk in. She will literally stop talking and just stare down the student until she loses control and just says "Get Out, I can't handle this" but she is the one walking in and out of clinicals talking and laughing and carrying on. It pisses me off to watch, how disrespectful these instructors can be. After getting our uniforms we were suppose to practice our skills on wound care, the clinical instructor had set up two labs for us to use. She even commented on how hard she had worked for us to get everything together and you could see every bed side table had the proper equipment in place. A friend and I went to the second lab and no instructor was present, so we went out to the hall and what do you know there are three of them standing there and talking, so I went up to them and I said are one of you going to be in the second lab as skills instructors and they ask well who is in the other lab, so i tell her and she says no you all just go to one lab. When we get to the first lab room, you can see the steam rising off the clinical instructors face b/c she had worked so hard to set everything up for us. She just left the room, and she came back....clinical lab was over. This is just one instance of many over the last six weeks and to see how screwed up things are really disappoints me. I worked so hard to get here and I PAID for this education.
My questions to all of you all....... Is this how your nursing program was? Did my school just accept way to many people and they are in over their head? Did the mass evacuation b/c of Rita go to their? (even though I have witnessed this long b/f Rita threatened our coast) Do I have way to high expectations?
I feel completly unprepared for clinicals. We have never had an open lab to practice our skills. Is this normal? I feel like I am about to be thrown to the wolves! Hell, in our skills practice lab we can't even open up a betadine package, just pretend. God forbid we waste their money. I thought I paid a lab fee for some of these things.
Am I being a big baby? I don't have anything to compare this to. Maybe I just need to vent my disappointment. My expectations haven't been met and I am let down. Please don't take this wrong, I still want to be a nurse and I will make it through this program. I just need to adjust my self to the reality of it versus the dream.....
P.S.--sorry for all the spelling
errors in advance