All the way through NS I worked in a small, baby ER and I loved it. I loved never having a clue what would walk through the door next or what EMS would bring in. I thrived on chaos at work. I liked the fact it was a small facility and you actually had time to get to know your patients. I liked knowing that even as a student/tech, I had a chance to help patients out every once and awhile by getting them some help, making a referral for extra services, etc....I liked it because it was a small town and you were appreciated almost every single day by at least 90% of your patients, even when there was very little you could do but send them to a bigger facility for treatment. I liked the cards from families, EMS and other people telling us thank you for everything we did. Those made my day. I liked that in our customer satisfaction surveys, our department almost always made 5's. I liked that we always worked as a team and you were there for your teammates no matter how much you couldn't stand them 20 mins. before. I liked the doctors, RT, X-ray and every other person I worked with. I liked that even in the worst code ever that we worked, the doctors could still cry with the rest of us. I liked that our doctor's wives would cook us dinner, cookies and other treats and bring it in to us. I liked that families sometimes would send us flowers or order us pizza and have it delivered. I liked knowing no matter how bad my day was and how busy we were, I made the difference in at least 1 person that day, even if it was nothing more than a band-aid on a child's hurt finger.
I went to a M/S floor because I was told that I needed at least 2 years of experience to be a good ER nurse, even in my baby hospital and was told that by my manager there. I don't like it at all. It isn't for me. I feel lost, disorganized, confused and I run around all shift long trying to remember the 47 things I need to do before 10. I feel I'm alone in my shift 99% of the time (even though I work with 4-5 other RN's, they are just as busy as me). I could easily go with the flow of the chaos on any ER shift I worked, but on the M/S floor - the chaos sends me over the edge. I have yet to feel I've made 1 bit of difference to anyone....the patients complain to the next shift even before I leave the room about how I didn't do XYZ for them during my shift (even though...we all know I did everything I possibly could including calling the doc at 3 a.m. for more pain meds). I feel like a glorified maid and waitress of drugs than I do an RN. I feel my manager doesn't appreciate me, my coworkers spend the entire shift taking trash about each other. The day/night wars wear me out. I feel there is no team at this job and I feel so alone (yes, I said it once, it bears the repeat).
So, with all that being said....there is a new manager of the small baby ER that is fine with me having <1 year of experience, so I'm heading back there very soon.......life is just far to short to be miserable forever!!!