Quote from onconurseRT
I have the "break down" issue right now even though I am trying to manage it by focusing on the positive. :uhoh21: For me it started in June/July of this year. I started seeing a stress management counselor 1 time a week outside of work and she is wonderful. I would not suggest seeing anyone through the facility that someone works at for therapeutic purposes. I just "celebrated" my 1 year in nursing. This is a really good question because I am wondering how many nurses are "in the closet" about this issue and how many will never admit it. I was explaining to the counselor how hard it is (at least for me) to even admit there is an adjustment problem and that the current nursing that I am doing is affecting me adversly in my life. Just like any other profession, it is hard to admit that "it's too much" or " I can't handle it". I feel that because of my base Type A personality, it is even harder if I am not at the top of my game-- so to speak. If anyone is willing to share, I would also like to know what someone else goes through when that "overwhelming" feeling roles around.
FWIW, onconurseRT, I can tell you that I too am struggling with this realization.......and I've been a nurse for the better part of a decade.
Nursing was, and still is, the one thing I've wanted to do all my life, and I waited almost 40 years to become one. I had to claw my way through four years of school to earn a two-year-degree, went into debt which will take me the rest of my working life to repay, and worked my hind end off to earn those precious two initials behind my name.
Now I'm questioning whether it's my choice of career, or just me that's faulty. I can't seem to get it right, no matter where I work or what kind of nursing I do; I'll think I'm doing a good job, patients and co-workers alike will praise me, yet I always seem to be in some kind of trouble with TPTB. And Lord help me if I make an actual mistake.......check out my thread "A Hard Lesson Learned" to see what happens when the excrement REALLY collides with the oscillating ventilation system.:stone
Chances are, you're probably a better nurse than you think.......I know I've been told I am, and we both need to listen to that because we are doing some "stinkin' thinkin'". It's easy to fall into the trap of feeling inadequate, because the system works to beat nurses down---even though there's a nursing shortage on---and we wonder why fewer candidates are attracted to the profession?
Hang in there........it sounds like you need a change of pace and place to me, not to mention somewhere safe to vent those frustrations that have nowhere else to go. That's one of the things this BB does so well, and there are always people here who can commiserate with and even help you.
Good luck to you, and enjoy your time here at allnurses........we need all the support we can get!!