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Hi, if you could use paragraphs in your post it is easier on the eyes, and the readers comprehension.
It is very scary to change. What you are feeling is normal.
I could be wrong but maybe you find is scary, with all your experience, to work in a job where you will almost feel like a new grad with no experience. Will they expect you to function easily and efficiently because of your work history? Will they understand that this type of work is different from what you have done, will they treat you like a new grad? What have they offered for orientation?
The family, work hours, will take some getting used to. You husband sounds like a great guy. It may be difficult and take some adjusting. If everybody can keep a positive attitude and "can do" attitude hopefully the kinks will get worked out.
Thank you for the editing tip....the paragraphs definitely make a difference.
In my heart of hearts I undoubtedly know that the fear of being inadequate or failing is the biggest obstacle between where I am and where I want to be. (Whew, I admitted it, I feel a bit relieved). Thank you for helping me to feel comfortable saying that. I am truly as fearful as I am excited.
Orientation would be 8 weeks with a preceptor and the CNO will send me to the OR for a few days to refresh my IV skills. It seems to be a supportive environment for transition where there is a learning curve.
My father has battled Cancer and 2 heart attacks over the past 2 years. With each hospital stay or acute visit, I found myself telling both him and my mom, " I want that to be me" (referring to the outstanding nurses who provided care). I had sheer admiration in my eyes, as if a little kid looking up to their hero. I desperately want to be a great nurse, but unlike the greatness in the areas I've mastered thus far. All of that came fairly easy to me and ultimately mundane. I want to be in the thick of things, the adrenaline, the critical thinking.... feeling as though I am making a difference.
What if I fail......but what if I fly???? Thank you for assuring me that fear of change is normal. I feel a heightened sense of confidence in moving forwards and accepting the opportunity to grow.