Quote from jeane1090
Thanks for the encouraging words. I have been in a mental slump and nursing seems to bring out the worst of my already severe anxiety. All I can think about is eventually getting fired one day for my stupid mistakes. Might sound a bit extreme but unfortunately that's how my mind works
You've gotten some really good responses, understanding, and support here, jeane.
Now it's my turn and I'm going to blast you out of the water.
But I wanted to approach this situation from a different angle and that's one reason why I copied your perfectly worded post. It's all good, but this part stood out to me: "...nursing brings out the worst of my already severe anxiety. All I can think about is eventually getting fired one day for my stupid mistakes".
I've recently stumbled on a concept new to me that makes a lot of sense, and it basically goes "Depression is the result of feelings toward past events and anxiety stems from the fear of future events".
In your case, one of your biggest fears is losing your job and you seem to stress over that, jeane. A lot of us do that- project and stress. Just being aware- having insight to your foibles- is the beginning of dealing with them.
What helped me the most, and I'm not necessarily recommending it for you, jeane, was getting fired from a couple of jobs. Getting fired really wasn't that big of a deal. Oh, it was inconvenient and I didn't like it, and they were blows to my ego, but hey- I survived. In fact, I benefitted a lot from those experiences.
It's sort of like when I taught my niece how to ride a bicycle after my brother, her father, just couldn't do it. I noticed my niece had a fear of falling off the bicycle, so we went out to a nice soft grassy field and practiced falling off of our bicycles multiple times. We went back on the blacktop and she could suddenly and magically ride a bicycle!
Her anxiety stemming from the projected future event of falling was diminished and she was able to ride her bicycle and perform to the best of her ability.
Just a little food for thought.
Now, go out there and make some more mistakes! After all: "Practice provides opportunity for possible improvement"! I myself regularly make mistakes and have gotten really good at it!
Good luck to you, jeane!