Ok, so I am a new nurse (I know, you've heard that before) of 7 months on and oncology/med-surg floor. I love my patients, and well some of my co-workers. But I am starting to wonder if maybe I just don't want to do this anymore. Let me explain.
I have the same complaints many others have...long hours, hard to work with PCA/CNA, heavy load of patients from beginning to end, etc. I work woth adults and I'm tired of doing my work and the work of the PCA/CNA. I don't mind helping when I can, but come on already. :angryfire Oops, let me focus. I am not sure I want to continue working with 200-300 lb. patients that medically are heavy, then heavy physically. I get chewed out by families, doctors, heck the housekeepers are probably mad at me on some days!!
Anyhoo, I am really having something inside say that there has to be more to this nursing thing, but how do I find that?
Some of my friends (other newbies) told me to just get through my 1st year, then decide if I want to go elsewhere. Ok, I hear that. But I thought oncology was that place. Now, I'm not so sure.
Is something wrong with me? Has anyone else felt this way? Maybe I'm just reacting to current situations. I don't look forward to going to work anymore. I go to work because I have to, and because I hope that today will be different. I like that I have other newbies with me (we comfort one another) But they all feel the same way.
Jan 22, '07
A change of shift might make things a little easier. I wound up switching to straight nights so I could leave a lot of the everyday bs where the sun does
I'm just not there with it. :chuckle Fewer docs, family members, tests and the like. The pace is a little less hectic, but you trade-off by not having the same resources that you would working during the day. As for getting chewed out, who cares if someone is "mad" at you? You're not there for people to like you. I think Leslie has a good point. A bad floor may still be a bad floor, but your perspective may be a little different when the newness wears off. You'll be able to better differentiate how much is you being a new nurse and how much of it is toxic environment.
I started out on a bad floor, but like you, I thought it was just me. My best friend is also a nurse with a few years under her belt. She was able to help me shed some light on my situation. She knows my faults and is loyal, but not to the point of blindness where I'm concerned. So when she said, "Honey, it's not you. It's not because you're new. It's a bad floor. You gotta get out of there.", I took her seriously. I put in a transfer after I had been there eight months and it went through after I had been there close to eleven. So while it's good to wait, if a place is truly unsafe and toxic, you may do well to get the h#$% out of there. You just need some input from a few seasoned nurses you can trust to help you discern which to do.
Last edit by NurseyBaby'05 on Jan 22, '07