I Need Advice, Support, HELP!!!!!!

  1. HI everybody, I was looking at this site a few months ago and it was too confusing and I was trippin' trying to figure it out so I quit, but now here I am. I hope Im doin it right this time. Im here because I need some advise and help. Im on probation with the CA BRN. I was addicted to drugs etc...went to rehab....Clean for over a year now. I have been out on disability and now I have to go find a job because my disability runs out soon. I live in a really small county and there arent many jobs I can do because I have certain restrictions. Also I am scared To disclose my stuff to the prospective employers which i am required to do. Im just about ready to just surrender my license because I know no one will hire me. I have had major bipolar disorder after I quit drugs and I just dont know if I can do this. Has anyone out there survived anything like this? How do you tell them at an interview about your stuff? Im just thinkin what the _____ am I gonna do? Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you.
    Last edit by traumaRUs on Apr 19, '07 : Reason: Language - nope can't use that word - thanks.
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    About 5150kat

    Joined: Apr '07; Posts: 4
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    Specialty: 7 year(s) of experience in Er, ICU, Correctional, Psych

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  3. by   TazziRN
    I'm sending you a PM, check your PMs in a few minutes
  4. by   Cattitude
    Quote from 5150kat
    HI everybody, I was looking at this site a few months ago and it was too confusing and I was trippin' trying to figure it out so I quit, but now here I am. I hope Im doin it right this time. Im here because I need some advise and help. Im on probation with the CA BRN. I was addicted to drugs etc...went to rehab....Clean for over a year now. I have been out on disability and now I have to go find a job because my disability runs out soon. I live in a really small county and there arent many jobs I can do because I have certain restrictions. Also I am scared ******** (Can I say that here)? To disclose my stuff to the prospective employers which i am required to do. Im just about ready to just surrender my license because I know no one will hire me. I have had major bipolar disorder after I quit drugs and I just dont know if I can do this. Has anyone out there survived anything like this? How do you tell them at an interview about your stuff? Im just thinkin what the _____ am I gonna do? Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you.
    There are a few of us here in recovery. I wish there were an area here for this but I guess they feel it not appropriate, how sad as it is an issue that needs attention as people can see by the recent posts.

    Do you have nurse addict support groups in your area? How about 12 step cadeuces (sp) meetings. You need to have contact with other nurses in your state that are working and have been through this.

    You can PM me if you want. I'm not in your state but I can give you a shoulder.
  5. by   steelcityrn
    So sorry about your pain. Its great that you have been off drugs that long. Bi- polar is a very complicated diagnosis as you know. You may not be able to work in nursing, as you have stated, but I would look into permanent disability, because after all, any one of us can becaome physically ill and unable to do nursing. But we all need to have a income to survive. Good luck to you.
  6. by   TazziRN
    If she's on probation she should already be plugged into support groups and stuff.


    Yoo-hoo, Kat, waiting to hear from you!!
  7. by   GIJay
    I once thought the same way after getting fired for diverting drugs. I am currently enrolled in the Texas version (TPAPN). It is tough to sell yourself to a new employer and I went on many interviews that all seemed to go great until the 'why did you leave your last job' question came up. But I did finally find a director who believes in second chances. Took about 5 months unemployed for it to happen so hang in there. I have 14 months to go in the program here. Good Luck.
    -jayb
  8. by   muffie
    i wish you all the best in your future
  9. by   allantiques4me
    God bless you.I am sorry for your suffering.
  10. by   CRNI-ICU20
    This is the hardest part of recovery....getting those around you to trust YOU again....and that is hard work...and it is imperative you stay clean and true to your self.....
    I wish I could help you more....but I also realize, that you have to do for yourself what you need...no one can do this except you. Have you considered other areas of nursing where contact with drugs will not be an issue? What about nurse consulting?
    What about working with addiction yourself, since you have been there, you of all people, will have first hand experience in understanding the drug addiction cycle.....maybe you will have to re-locate? Dont give up....there's a place for you...there's someone out there that could benefit from your knowledge and experience....turn something bad into something good...
    good luck....
  11. by   TrudyRN
    I have not suffered this particular problem - drug issues + mental illness. You really might be expecting too much of yourself but I guess you should try to work if you think you can. Are you stable on your medication and do you have ongoing therapy? What can you do besides Nursing? Can you work in an area that does not deal with your drug that you had trouble with? If it was an injectable, try a Nursing home or Psych or a doc's office or clinic or school nursing (nothing there but Tylenol, Motrin). Stay away from Med/Surg, Recovery Room, ICU, ER, Home Health (fentanyl patches, Roxanol and other po painkillers). How about Case Management and QA? Insurance company nurse?


    If I were hiring, I'd want you to tell me the truth about the drug problem. I believe in 2nd chances and I think a lot of other people do, too. Honestly, I don't know how I'd feel about the bipolar Dx so you might want to leave that out of the interview. Sorry, not trying to be mean, just honest. I wish you well.
  12. by   gr8rnpjt
    Try this forum,

    http://www.voy.com/140037/

    They may be able to provide some help as well.
  13. by   Cobweb
    A gal I know, when she first started back to work, got a job where there were some nurses she knew, in a nursing home. She would give them her narc key and they would pass her narcs while she took over some of their charting or some other similar type job.

    In our area they are always looking for experienced counselors, and I would think an experienced and empathic nurse would have a leg up on that type of job. Another place they are always looking for people around here is the organ donation center.

    I would think that the first year or so of employment would be the acid test. Maybe you could work as a CNA or something to get your foot in the door and then when they have worked up a bit of faith in your job performance go for the gold.

    I'm a total gimp and work in an electric wheelchair, with a short life expectancy ahead of me, and yet I didn't have any trouble getting several job offers. I was flat honest about what they could expect; it's just easier for me that way. I recommend perfect honesty, but I'm famous for naive optimism and realize this is an imperfect world to be honest in
  14. by   5150kat
    Thanks you guys for all your advise and great support! I really needed to hear some of that stuff. I never had a problem with drugs at work or diverting them, it was other stuff. But, per my probation orders I just have to be supervised around them, however I DO want to work in psych. I am taking some classes from vocational rehab in chemical dependency counseling too. Im just so ashamed and humiliated to go to the interviews an reveal the past, because it was pretty bad. I had a pretty bad drug problem, and even though I have been clean for a year, its hard to believe anyone would trust me. I love nursing but im just not sure I can go back to the acute care stuff I used to do, nor do I think I should. Maybe some day. Again thanks for all the great advise. Kat

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