Quote from NewKidOnTheFloor
Hello there! I finished my BSN in May 2016 and was unable to find a job until 2 months ago. I started in a med/surg floor. The patient ratio is usually around 1:10 and all I got where 10 days of orientation on the floor(9 of which were spent as a CNA because they were short staffed). So after my one day with an RN, I was let go to do it all myself. I was so scared, but decided my best ally would be a good attitude and willingness to learn. Quitting is not an option. I love this job too much. But after 2 months, I can't sleep (without dreaming about being in the hospital) my stress levels have affected my health, I barely eat and I just feel like a total failure. I struggle to keep up with the workload, I feel horrible asking so many questions (I want my patients to be safe) I worry I can't handle this, and find myself wondering what have I done by becoming a nurse. This feeling fades when I get to make a difference. But as a new nurse, I feel more like a burden. I'm 37 and have never felt so incompetent in my life. Will this ever go away?
Well, they certainly have you where they want you - Feeling guilty for breathing.
Please realize that you are being used and abused. I understand you want to keep the job. But why should you feel horrible for asking questions, why should you feel like a burden when you had next to zero orientation?
By becoming a nurse, you have entered a profession that can be wonderful, but which can also be, as you see, horrible when you work for an employer such as yours.
What have you been doing for the last 2 years?
I suggest you have a serious talk with yourself. Then with your boss.
What would you advise another nurse in the same situation?