I am at a point in life where I would like to stop doing things that I don't really much enjoy, such as my work. Unfortunately, I have to have an income. That's ok because I don't really mind working and would probably tire quickly of being totally retired.
What I'm having trouble with is giving myself permission to stop Nursing. I've done it for a very long time now and it is a habit. There isn't much reward in it for me any more and my job is basically boredom punctuated by stress.
I know what I'd like to switch to and have already taken steps to do it. But I am afraid to give up the regular paycheck so am easing into the new area. I also find that I have some fear or guilt about stopping Nursing, my habit of several decades.
How can I be rid of the guilt? Fear is understandable to me. I'm taking a big new step and it could cost me a lot of money. But guilt? Why guilt? HELP! I would appreciate any insights you might have.
Feb 5, '07
Quote from allantiques4me
Why would you feel guilty?? Think about it. Youve cared for people for a long time.Does this have anything to do with the supervisor you were C/o about?Dont let that person get ya down.
Yes, in part. The whole mess w/her has REALLY undermined my confidence.
Another thing, though - I think the fact that I'd be going out without getting a going away/retirement potluck or that gold watch or the pension - I'd just be fading away and quietly exiting via the back door if I could keep the secret of my resigning out of the blabbermouths of our staffing coordinator and others - is making it feel like there is no real closure, like I somehow failed to achieve whatever it is one achieves. I didn't make (or want) DON or Head Nurse or whatever, although I did rise a couple of levels from staff nurse. Does that make sense?
It is just so scary and wearisome to me that nurses can have many great years and then it ends with a mistake or one misstep or one bad relationship with a boss. All those years gone poof.
On the bright side, I am taking another class today toward my new thing. And Hubbo is joining me in the class. I've waited forever for that.
Last edit by TrudyRN on Feb 5, '07