Anyone hate their first job? - page 3
Hi! I just quit my first nursing job. It was on a med-surg floor, which was not what I was planning to do after graduation. My goal was to go directly into community health nursing, but I got antsy... Read More
May 23, '05I loved my first job stayed there for almost a year. All the staff were extremely supportive and although we were constantly understaffed I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in the world. Work was always fun no matter how terrible your day was going. Then our Cardiac Surgery ward was closed due to amalgamating all services in the city, and I was moved to another hospital with most of the old staff. Now I've been there a couple of months and I can't get out of there soon enough . There is absolutely no support for the nursing staff, everything is the nurses fault...and its plain old no fun working there. I have an interview tommorrow to try to get out....:uhoh21:
There are good jobs out there and I'm a firm believer that nursing has so many different opportunities that there is a right area for everyone....
May 23, '05Quote from Judee SmudeeA good cureall for that would be to let the "Powers That Be" who run the health facilities get knee deep in the crap by working those floors themselves without a potty break, meal break, chance to chart until the end of the shift, and have the nurses stay on their case for not getting the work done in a timely fashion. Let the nurses run the facilities for awhile and ensure that "TPTB" get a good taste of what it is like to not feel human or respected............................yes, I could go on and on, but you all get my drift.....................................Health care facilities just keep going through new nurses till they find one willing to put up with the crap. Seems to me that has been going on for a long time.
May 23, '05Quote from TriageRN_34Sadly, the behavior you just described is much to frequently seen coming from managment. I have no doubt whatsoever that things went down exactly as you described because I have seen worse. Repeatedly I have had people who left other professions to become nurses say that they had never experieced the kind of mistreatment nursing managment hands out until they became nurses. My niece who has been a ICU nurse now for seven years was a bartender before becoming a nurse and she said she was treated better as a barmaid. Most new nurses are in shock for the first two years on average before they start to develope thick skin. Everyone talks about lateral violence, difficult patients and families, rude physicians and passive aggressive support staff, I have experienced all these things and they are nothing in compare to the incompentent, psycotic, ruthlessly ambitious, obsessive compulsive control freak managment people I have experienced.This woman introduced herself to me, then immediately started telling me that I have not been coming to work, late all the time, didn't get my TB test, was difficult to work with according to the other staff, and that even though I had a signed agreement...I did not qualify with this record to go onto the ED preceptorship but to remain for 2 years in med surge (hmmmmm perhaps the reason for this sudden call to the office...they must have needed me to stay huh?!?!?)..
I finally had to interupt her and say...Okay do you have the correct file??? I have been doing my shifts and never turned down a call in, always 20 minutes early, get along great with others, always have a smile, took my TB tests not only once, but three times because they kept loosing my paperwork (and never complained), and she must certainly have the wrong person...
THen she started actually screaming at me from her nice cherrywood desk..."you think I am stupid enough to pull the wrong file? Who do you think you are, this just goes to show your unwillingness to work with others!"
I was dumbfounded...must have looked like a doe in the headlights! I restated that this must be an error, or maybe I wasn't clocking in properly and be happy to show her how I clock in to make sure my timecards were correct...but since I check my paychecks for errors I had never noticed any according to my own records at home (I have learned to always keep a record of my own hours at home to double check..I have been dissed several hundred dollars a few times before!!!).
Again she just started screaming at me, and I turned white and started to shake when I finally blew! "Look, I have promised to be here today, and I still have 4 hours left of shift. I will complete my shift and leave my keys and passcard...not with you but with security whom will escort me out of this facility to assure I am doing NOTHING wrong or even accidentally taking even a cotton ball in my pocket! Then I will walk out these doors, and NEVER look back ever again!".
She yelled again at me that I would never be a nurse again..and I suprisingly very calmly said with a smirk (I think I smirked..or it was a grimice of shock..LOL!)..."Trust me, if this is an example of a MAGNET hospitals policy of treating nurses..then my dear..if I had my license handy...you can have it and I will not EVER regret the choice! At this point...lady, you can have this facilities nursing bs...I don't need it!"
I completed my shift, security (I knew security and told the head to escort me out as a favor) escorted me to my car, and I left NEVER to return again! The security guy was dumbfounded too, and quite sad actually..we had many conversations together and we really enjoyed eachothers company at the old coffee shop late in noc shift!
I have NEVER EVER been treated with so much general disrespect...I mean my gosh a person treats their dog better than that woman did to me! NO thanks..and I was very serious about the license too!
May 23, '05Quote from cheerfuldoerA good cureall for that would be to let the "Powers That Be" who run the health facilities get knee deep in the crap by working those floors themselves without a potty break, meal break, chance to chart until the end of the shift, and have the nurses stay on their case for not getting the work done in a timely fashion. Let the nurses run the facilities for awhile and ensure that "TPTB" get a good taste of what it is like to not feel human or respected............................yes, I could go on and on, but you all get my drift.
:chuckle :chuckle Oh I loved your post! you really tell it like it is!
May 23, '05I've been a nurse since February. I too hate my job. Dread going there in the morning, cry in the car sometimes. I think hospital nursing may not be for me. Too many people, too many attitudes, too much going on at once, too much reponsibility. I'm sooooo scared something is going to come up, and I won't know what to do. Some nurses are really kind and will help if you need them to, but I try to get myself through the day without asking too many questions. I do ask when I need to. I just don't enjoy it as much as I thought I would. I keep thinking life it too short to be miserable. I'm also a day/night rotater. I prefer nights. You get to read charts, actually sit down, and read charts. I learn so much doing that, instead of just going about tasks like a robot. I"m going to apply for two jobs tomorrow community health nurse, and school nurse.
I'm scared for nursing's future, I can't imagine that many people will stay on Med/Surg floors if this is the way it is.
May 23, '05Quote from luv2quilt:)Yes, I've busted my butt on those med/surg floors for many moons in years past, and I know quite well the irony of it all. I'd LOVE to run a boot camp for those "head haunchos" to train them up properly the way they should be trained and all...ya know what I mean?:chuckle :chuckle Oh I loved your post! you really tell it like it is!
May 24, '05I really didn't like my job when I first started nursing.....almost quit every day for the first six months hahaha. Now I have been there a little over a year, and I have good days, and bad days. Crusty patients who expect five star treatment still piss me off from time to time mainly when I don't have time to devote to their comfort measures. I went into nursing to save lives so finding a job that aligns me with acutely ill patients would be ideal, my compassion soars when I have patients that actually can't do things for themselves. For some nurses thier practice almost mirrors the hospitality network haha, that is so not me,,,, anyways I do believe what causes dissatisfaction in part of a job is not getting out of it what you need, or rather getting what you don't need.....I don't need to be a maid lol......
very normal to hate, depise your first nursing job, just means maybe it's not a good fit for you right now..........after all it is only a job.
Feb 5, '06My question to everyone is how did you get the next job after the first one didn't work out.
I was fired because I chose to get unemployment instead of just leaving. But now I'm not getting many bites on my current resume. Is it the time of year? Will it open up more in March or April when they start hiring for the spring grads?
I'm in new york....
Feb 7, '06Quote from JaylaWOW! You just described EXACTLY what is going on my unit right now. I've been their for 2.5 years. It's my first job. I at first liked it a lot. I did my internship there through end of college and got a job through my internship on there. We worked together and I learned a lot but then we kept loosing staff, got staff mixed with already toxic staff members just stirring up trouble, not helping out, pettiness, way different ideas on how to care for pt's and treat coworkers MIXED with increasing turnover rate with pts. I abhore it now. The sick think it was not allways like this. The one thing I noticed that may be a key factor of why it is so horrible is the my unit consistently has bad management. I am currently searching for another position. I am going to try a nursing specialty. If anything I don't think I'll come back to that unit. Not that another area doesn't have downsides just when staff is out of control as you've described and the managers are not doing anything to fix it those are not conditions to work with. And yep as others have said I've go nightmares from it too. Well I allways dream what going on in life. Anyway good luck and as you're read you're not alone and I'm glad people posted about this. I was begining to think it was me.Hi! I just quit my first nursing job. It was on a med-surg floor, which was not what I was planning to do after graduation. My goal was to go directly into community health nursing, but I got antsy because the process of application was lengthy, and took a hospital job.
Anyway, the unit had weak leadership, lack of teamwork, and an over-abundance of gossip, backstabbing and bullying. People (nurses, techs, secretaries, transport, etc. ect.) got away with acting however they pleased. My last day I had to literally fight a tech to get a hold of the only functioning pulse ox machine I could find because she was doing her afternoon vitals. I respect that she has her job to do too, but my demented patient who keeps pulling out his NC, O2 sat dropping to 76% (which I wouldn't have known without the pulse ox machine) who is in need of a restraint order takes precedence over afternoon vitals IMO. Especially when I told her I'd give the darn machine right back!!!!
In addition, I was tired of being made to feel incompetent and lazy by the 7p to 7a staff, especially considering I took on average a 15 minute break during the majority of my 12 hour shifts. I know I didn't do everything right...that I made mistakes. I'm a brand new nurse (started this job in August), and I'd appreciate constructive criticism, not a sneer and dead silence during my entire report. How do people get to be so mean and bitter?
Anyway, despite the fact that I feel justified in leaving that place because it was ruining all aspects of my life (I was sleepless, lost weight, and my personal relationships suffered greatly), I still feel like a failure. So, my question is, has anyone else left their first nursing job too? I just need to know I'm not alone here...
Feb 7, '06I never worked med-surg as a nurse, but my first CNA job was as a float between all the med-surg floors in a large hospital. I floated between 4 or 5 different types of floors so I got to see a lot in that year. The staffing was pretty good, I never felt like I had a huge load unless I worked night shift (and then I'd have all 40 patients sometimes). The nurses were okay to me, but they never had much time for anything but charting and meds. So generally, it was a pretty well-run hospital.
I still hated it though. I never wanted to do med-surg, I was a NICU hopeful from the time I was 16 years old. I'm glad I did the year in med-surg though, even as a CNA, because it really helped me in school. It also showed me what working on the floors with adults was like, because I got to observe so much on all those floors. This was my junior year in nursing school. My senior year, I got a CNA job in a NICU at another hospital to make sure that I actually liked that environment, because even though it sounded good in theory, I really didn't know what it would be like for real. I wanted to observe that field for a year as well, so that by the time I graduated and got my first nursing job, I had some idea of what was out there in the real world.
Needless to say, I loved it, got a job in NICU as a new grad, and have never left. But I do sometimes wish I'd have gotten some adult experience as an RN, just in case I want to do something else in the future. You gave it a try, and my hat goes off to you for that.
Feb 7, '06I have been at my first job for 8 months now. There are good days and bad days for all of us. There are days where I feel as if my intelligence is truly being wasted because I am nothing but the pain pill fairy... feel like I should have wings and a wand passing out the narcs. There are days where getting b....ed at for what OTHERS did not do gets on my nerves. We can pretty much count on a huge lecture on Monday morning if we had a nice weekend. That gets old.
What keeps me going back is the people I work with. The other floor nurses from whom I have learned SO MUCH. LPN's and RN's alike. They all have my back when I have a question. I don't have a DON I can go to when I need to vent but there is always a sympathetic ear for me if I need one. My ADON stands against a wall with her arms crossed and a frown on her face waiting for someone to walk by a call bell or to do something wrong. I have 5 nurses who will join me in the eye roll when she walks away.
No matter where you work, there will be crap going on...whether it is politics gossiping, understaffing or a combination.... when you find some place that you just fit in, keep it. I will not be at my current job forever...as a nurse I have a ton of options. I am obligated there for two years and I will stick that out but when I do move on, I will always remember the positive experience my first job has been and that no matter where I work, no job is perfect.