I just wanted to kind of get this off my chest and was wondering if anyone has experienced/is experiencing the same thing and if it ever gets better?
I'm in a part-time nursing program where we only have clinical once every other weekend for one 12-hour shift.
This is my 4th quarter overall and my 3rd quarter of having clinicals. I'm very comfortable with all of the theory and have done very well in the classroom, but I really get super, super anxious several days prior to clinical and then for about the first 3 hours of the actual clinical experience.
I eventually settle down once I find a groove, but I never really feel comfortable and always feel kind of in the way and stupid. I try to do my best to "dive in" and help with everything, but it really is a crap-shoot. One day, I'll feel like I did a good job and the next day, I'll feel like I just did the basics, but didn't really help my patient very much or was a bother to them, etc.
We only get 5 clinical experiences per quarter and then we're onto the next clinical site, so by the time I'm finally starting to feel comfortable, it's time to move on.
I learn by doing, so the fact that I only get to really practice one day every other week makes it hard for me to feel comfortable doing assessments on patients and I feel like an idiot trying to get used to the new facility's DynaMap machines. The other day, the patient looked at me like I was an idiot, b/c their machine was so different from what I was used to and it was my first time.
I just always feel like I'm "getting used to" everything and don't really have a chance to settle in and feel comfortable.
I wish I was able to go to clinicals 3-4 days a week like the students in the full-time program at my school get to do, but I have to work, especially as my employer pays quite a hefty amount towards my tuition.
I suppose that's the trade-off, but it's still frustrating.
Starting next quarter, we'll actually be having 2 clinicals every other weekend (Sat/Sun instead of just Sat), but those will be at different clinical sites, so I feel like it will not really help me feel settled in, but will at least give me more practice in general.
I do practice on my own at home doing pretend assessments out-loud on invisible patients and I review the proper steps in the clinical skills textbook, but it's not the real thing.
I'm hoping this feeling is normal and that once I start working, I can finally get into a groove and feel comfortable. I just hate feeling stupid/out-of-place/useless.
I have had a few really good clinical experiences, especially last quarter, as my clinical instructor was actually a clinical educator for her career and actually made it a point to take us into patient rooms and hold teaching sessions and really work with us one-on-one.
My previous clinical instructor before that and the one I have right now kind of just sent us on our merry way to "help out" the nurses and to "grab her" if we had questions or needed help, which seems like a cop-out to me.
She is asking us questions throughout the day and is planning on doing assessments with us in the room this upcoming week, but I have a feeling there are not going to be planned things every week that we are being taught and that she's just doing the assessments with us this upcoming week so she can do our mid-term evaluation.
Are my expectations too high from my clinical instructor last quarter or is this the norm?
Anyway, I'm sorry, I'm babbling now...If anyone could offer any advice, I would really, really appreciate it.
Thanks for listening!