Hey everyone. It's been a long time since I've posted anything. Not sure if you recall but I had a really rough time during my first two years of nursing (see previous posts)
Not only that, but I was rude and ignorant towards a lot of you on this forum (I sincerely apologize) (see my post about quitting nursing) because someone suggested that I seek professional help.
The truth was, I was suffering from burn out. From my first years of nursing? YES. I wanted so bad to please my bosses that I stayed after when I was too exhausted. I picked up days that I needed to rest on. I stayed overnight because no one would do it. And as a result, I had quickly ran out of gas. And when you're exhausted, you're prone to make mistakes. Nursing is a marathon not a race. And as you all know, those good deeds are not recalled during a med error.
Also, I think as nurses, we focus on everything we did wrong and not the good things we do. Every time I made a mistake, I would run to this forum and post it. It seemed like all I did was make mistakes when honestly I did a lot of good too but I never focused on it. Plus I learned from a lot of my mistakes too.
The truth is, I will make another med error in the future. I will make a bad call. I will go home crying and wishing I had made a better decision. But also one day I will drive home beaming from making a patient's day. I will be told that I'm a great nurse. I will catch a mistake before it was made. I will be the one that a patient feels comfortable talking to.
Nurses, we are human. We take so much time to take care of others meaning we are not taking care of ourselves. I spoke to someone professional and took the time to heal myself and I can honestly say I'm better than ever. One of my supervisors pulled me aside and told me how happy they are to have me at this new job.
And its all because of you all. Thank you