I'll have been a nurse for 2 years in January, but I still feel nauseas and have anxiety attacks before going into work. I admit I was a slow learner--it took me a while to get a grasp on all the systems and how they affect each other, symptoms, etc. But I've been at the same job since I graduated and the last two years have been unbelievable. I've gained forty pounds, I haven't dated in two years, I drink more than I ever have, etc. Its just such a huge responsibility to have people's lives in your hands. Some of the nurses I work with, most of them older, don't even care enough to look at charts to get background info on their patients, check on labs, etc. It's like they rather surf the net than work. And the doctors treat us like dirt. That was something I was not ready for coming out of school. I hear its better in teaching hospitals. I do three 12 hour shifts on weekends. Won't leave this job, cause the pay is the highest I can find in the city, and I'm a single mom. Just wanted to vent, glad I found this site. Shew!!!!