Quote from firefightnnurse
So, I started my first job ever as a nurse 2 months ago. After much shifting around of preceptors (not my choice, lots happened with each one, then some covered for the main one, etc. lotsa being bounced around) I feel like I am ready to quit. The floor felt like a great fit at first, now I feel as if my preceptor has zero faith in me with my assessment skills (which I am VERY confident in) and she is a serious control fanatic. I have seriously debated quitting after the past few weeks. I have only been there 2 months and this is my first nursing job, but I am miserable (tonight I came home sobbing after hearing how much I suck ALL day at time management, I am not moving fast enough for them, and essentially how much I suck as a nurse). I'm thinking I am already ready to quit. Is it too soon? Does this get better?? Can I switch areas in nursing yet? Or stick it out? Please help! this is really destroying ANY confidence I had.
It is too soon to quit, and it does get better.
The red flag that struck me is that you are "VERY confident" of your assessment skills. No new grad with only two months on the job should be VERY confident of their assessment skills. There is still so much to learn, and you don't even know what you don't know. If you're expressing a high degree of confidence already, no wonder she doesn't have faith in your assessment skills. As a preceptor, it is extremely difficult to teach a new grad who already thinks she knows it all. You cannot possibly know all about assessments -- you haven't had a chance to encounter much of anything in the vast array of abnormal findings.
Your negative relationships with your preceptors can be attributed to your over-confidence. Stick it out and become humble. Watch, listen and LEARN. Work on your time management skills -- something that ALL new grads suck at. I can state with a high degree of confidence that a new grad who doesn't suck at time management is overlooking a lot.
It takes about a year to become confident in your first nursing job, and about another year to actually become competent. Somewhere to the end of your first year, something "clicks" into place and you begin to feel that you CAN do this after all. Most of us, at that point, discover that we actually like our jobs, our colleagues and our career. It's just that the first year is miserable, and we all have to GO through it in order to GET through it.