Published Nov 1, 2016
I Will Finish
4 Posts
I graduated nursing school in May of 2014. I was very active in my program. I was the only person in my graduating class to graduate with honors. I was vice president of our chapter of the national honor society and was an officer in my class as well. My GPA was 3.9. I used to tutor fellow classmates for tests etc. I regularly made the highest grade in my class on tests and exams...but I CAN NOT pass the NCLEX. There are so many of my friends who I graduated with who BARELY passed nursing school who are RN's currently--who I tutored!
Due to my grades during school as well as my community involvement, I received a $35,000 scholarship to finish my BSN through the hospital that I was hired at even before I graduated. The day after graduation, I was at work as a grad-nurse and was making my nursing salary etc. My life was amazing.
The first time I tested was about 6 weeks after graduation. My dad passed away right before my test. I didn't have enough time to reschedule so I took it and failed with max questions. It really devastated me. The hospital I worked for bumped me down to nurse tech and I went from making $25+ an hour, to $9.10 to be a tech. I was totally devastated once again. I lost my scholarship, I lost my pride, I lost my money...everything my family and I had suffered through so I could follow my dream. I let about 3 months go by before I tested again. Once again, I failed. I didn't know where to turn.
My husband worked and supported our family 100% while I was in school. When I was accepted into nursing school, I left a job I hated, but I was making about $70k a year. My husband took on ALL of the responsibilities for our household, both with money and bills, as well as day to day tasks and taking care of our new born son. He did this the entire time I was in school. After I failed the second time, I could really tell he was starting to worry and be upset that I was more than 6 months out of school and still not working because he was working 7 days a week for our family. The pressure just added to my nervousness every time I went in to test. It's two years later and I've failed my test more times than I'd even want to admit. I've been working as a tech for the last 2 years. It has really put so much burden on my family and it breaks my heart. My husband has been working 60-80 hrs a week for almost 7 years and it kills me that it's all my fault. I've told him that I would go back to my old job and he tells me that he knows how much I want this and that he will continue to work like he does to give me more opportunity.
I need to do this for him! I need to do this for my son! More than anything, I need to do this for me because I feel like a failure. I need to find some kind of school to take a refresher course, not just a little 3-4 day testing procedures course. Can anyone shed any light on this for me? I have scoured the internet and can't come up with any schools that do refresher classes unless you are already an RN?
Thank you so much for reading this novel if you have made it this far! I'm sorry for all the dramatics, but this is life I guess!
tnbutterfly - Mary, BSN
83 Articles; 5,923 Posts
Hello and welcome to allnurses!
Your thread has been moved to the NCLEX Exam & Programs forum where you should get more responses to your questions.
Thank you!
Jannu0482
9 Posts
hi really feel sad about things going wrong in your life.i am also preparing my exam.i am also looking for classes.so i found Rachell Allen review live classes for 10 days.when you go on their website you able to find their classes schedule which happen in different cities every month.once in a year she has boot camp in Ontario LA.2016 is gone .next boot camp is in may 2017 for 35 days.hopefully this will help you in some ways.i also using u world .many of my friends said remar reviews is also helpful .don,t lose hope i know its easy to say but so many people are sailing in same boat like you are.god bless you with success .
Thank you! I was honestly half expecting to hear..."just quit, this isn't for you..." as I've seen on other people's posts! Good luck to you too!
crissyJane
8 Posts
I am so sad to hear about all you have been going through. That does not make this beast of a test any easier. I failed my first time and was absolutely devastated. I did well throughout nursing school and was almost positive I would pass. This last month has been pretty hard trying to pick myself back up again. However, UWORLD has been by far the BEST thing I could have utilized. I am more than positive had I used UWORLD prior to testing the first time, I would have passed. I retest in November and am praying that UWORLD is the key. But I have seen so many positive things about it, I would start there. Good luck! You will rock it!
Please reply after you test! BEST of luck!!!
la_chica_suerte85, BSN, RN
1,260 Posts
I think first you should maybe consider stabilizing your situation. Go back to your old job -- if you hated it that much, it will light the fire under your butt to get through the NCLEX. It will be less about the pressure of having to pass and more about rescuing yourself from a situation you dislike. You will also help take the stress and guilt out of your husband having to continue to work so hard while you try and figure out what to do. That will give you time to breathe, you'll feel better about contributing to your household (even though it's not in the way you thought you would be doing), and you'll feel a little more positive about things while you find your refresher course. There will be less stress about passing this time because clearly you're in a mindset that is not conducive to passing. Facing it again with all this pressure is not going to help you - remove the pressure, refocus, find your passion and fire again. Good luck!
Workitinurfava, BSN, RN
1,160 Posts
You might be experiencing test anxiety because of your thinking (NCLEX, the test that will make or break you). Maybe you have low confidence because you failed this test but managed to do well in all other areas. Do you feel super stressed when you test, hands get sweaty and you second guess yourself a-lot? It is clear based on your post that you know the info or else you would not have graduated with honors. Once you pass this test you will do fine but you must deal with whatever it is that is causing you to fail and I feel you know the info you just aren't doing well with taking the test. Have you tried Kaplan? Use the qbank and build your confidence. Don't be so hard on yourself as you have been through a lot of tough things recently. Don't worry about who you, "let down" because it really doesn't matter. Worry about you and what you want to do. You can do it, you have the info in your brain, so calm your thinking and pass this test. For once right now, don't save anyone else but your.self You don't have time to give to others anymore, your not where you need to be.
Tanvy
7 Posts
So sorry to hear all your are going thru. I am not sure how much of help this will be as I am not nurse yet but recently I have been researching the field. I have a teen daughter that I signed up in an online programs...ITS FREE...and a great help. I will be starting school after 15 years so I thought to go back and do some refreshing myself and I saw that they offer NCLEX exam help. It's Khanacademy.org. Wish you all the best and stay positive
Mauiyani
1 Post
Hi, as i read your blog here. I really feel you girl. We are in the same boat. I took my nvlex multiple times. I just took today but hopefully i am successful this time, result will be posted in 48 hours, so, will see.
I totally understand you. Its was a devastating feeling when you know you can be a good nurse but it is so hard to reach your goal. Me personally, i owe a lot of money already bcoz of this exams, its so expensive to take it many times plus we are not only talking about money here but the time and the confidence that taken away from us. Sometimes, life is so unfair..But hey?! Lets not allow that this feeling will kill our faith, our dreams. I always put in my head and that made me back into track again, is..God won't give us a problems/trials that we cannot handle. Lets contniue to believe ourselves and never give up. Bcoz in his time, we will be a conqueror and we become a good nurse, we much understand better how to be a great nurse in spirit and heart becoz we work hard for it in able to be what we are ...heads up and lets move again with confidence , even it is easy to said than done..but we have to pick up the broken pieces of ours if we really we want to be a nurse.
You are lucky, you have the supportive husband, family that supports you a lot!
I claimed that i passed and be an Registered nurse today. 11/3/16. But if it is not God timing and want me to wait his good timing still..I am still willing.. and have Faith to conquers all.
Add me to your skype(yani826mh), if you need someone to encourage you. Will keep lifting each other's spirit. Praying for you.
remorej
29 Posts
PLEASE SUBSCRIBE TO UWORLD! IT WILL HELP WITH CRITICAL THINKING AND HAVE A LOT OF HIGH-LEVEL SATA AND EKG. See my last posting in my profile and read how I passed my second time. This really sucks seeing a bright student (based on your marks) fail the nclex! This test does not defy you as a nurse!
Here's the link to my post: https://allnurses.com/nclex-discussion-forum/2nd-attempt-and-1073317.html
Hope you find inspiration in it! Thanks!