Your post touched me and I will send you a hug and prayer. I hear your discouragement becuase you did everything in your power to ensure a seat in nursing school, and this decision rendered you powerless.
You obviously worked hard with your academic achievement only to have the rules change on you mid-stream. Be proud of your accomplishments and go with the flow, and trust this may have happened for a reason.
"Life is what happens to you when you are busy making other plans." So reapply next semester or next year, so enjoy the time off. Don't give up on your dream and what is meant to be your purpose in life. 49 is young, baby--and the time will go by anyway.
I volunteer at the local hospital in the Mother/Baby Unit on Sundays, and it keeps me involved and connected. Holding those babies just makes my week!...and makes my real job bearable. Doing something like this may be good for you to, or maybe taking some "fun" classes at the CC for a change....not that I didn't have fun in anatomy or chemistry, but yoga and painting were good for my soul. You may need this time out for a little soul recharging.
I'm in Northern California, and my local community college does the lottery system too, but they allow higher priority (two entries vs. one I believe) if a student re-applies after failing the first time. Also, apparently there can be many drop-outs between now and starting day, so who knows what may happen for you Tim (can you feel me patting you firmly on the back).
I have my heart set on the CSU Eastbay extension program biking distance from my house and I've been retaking classes from a prior degree to move B's into A's so I can go in with a solid GPA.
But, the local CC and private school entry level MSN programs are very good and I will be applying to these as well. I would be honored to gain a seat to these two programs, even with the longer drives or higher expense. I'm glad to hear you are applying elsewhere. Your maturity obviously makes you well acccustomed to making lemonaid out of lemons.
Tim, I know life is not fair sometimes and it this nursing school process can be very discouraging. I feel your pain and want to send you some cyber energy to help you stay the course.
I am a mother of three young children, have had both my parents pass away within the last 4 years--my Dad while I was struggling with chemotherapy and trying to take my chemistries with a witch teacher (my only B's). I too am a parent of a child with special needs and a seizure disorder. As an older student who's been through hell and back, I feel for you. My fear is I will be in your shoes come May/June.
Therefore, I want to hear about your eventual success getting into a program. I want to hear that you are not giving up. This loooong process into nursing school is discouraging at many points; However, I want you to keep your spirits up. A year of your life will go by anyway--365 days are nothing when your whole life is still in front of you. I look forward to hearing good news about you within the year.
Feel the good vibes heading your way.....