Hi everyone I have been reading some of thses posts and decided to write my own. I graduated in August and came off orientation in L&D on November 20, 2008. I trained on day shift but was hired for nights. So it has been about 3 weeks now and I have had my ups and downs. I have come home crying, anxious and feeling very incompetent. I have been trouble sleeping and have resorted to sleeping pills when needed. All through nursing school and my nurse extrenship I was told that I would make a good nurse. Now, I am not so sure. I feel that I should know more than I do and walk into work every shift praying that I will have a good night. I have made stupid mistakes
that I am trying to learn from and hope that in time this feeling goes away.
Anyone who works in L&D or any field for that matter, can you tell me if this is normal? I hope that I am cut out for this specialty becuase I love it so much. I look in awe at senior niurses who seem to handle two laboring patients, one having decels, and the other getting an epridural, without freaking out. I am super sensitive, anxious and paranoid that I am going to screw something up-is this normal? My co-workers are very supportive but I feel that I might be annoying with all my questions. The night shift has hired many new nurses and I am the last to be hired. The docs make comments because there are so many new nurses (not all new grads). Some older nurses are more helpful than others and I tend to attach myself to the nicer ones. I am getting better with vaginal exams but still have other nurses check for me when I know the doc is not the nicest so that i dont tell them the wrong dilation. I hope one day this all just "clicks" but until then I hope to keep my sanity. I was so excited to be done with nursing school but now I wish I could go back.