Just starting to gain their trust and now...

I have been at my school since Feb. '08, so one full school year, plus a half of another, plus this year. It seems I am just now being accepted as the medical go-to person and the resource person in the building. Just today I had a staff member come to be because she heard the H1N1 vaccine could cause autism and paralysis. I explained about the controversity about preservatives in vaccines and that she could request preservative free for children under 2 and pregnant women, then I explained about the Guillian Barre thing in the 70's. I explained risk-to-benefit ratio and told her that for ME, the benefits outweigh and potential risk, but she should discuss it with her doctor and determine the ratio for herself and her family.

Later a parent came to me because her youngest child is 2 and has not started talking. She only says "mama" and gestures. I explained about developmental differences and gave her information on Early Childhood Interventions and the number to request an assessment.

So, I am feeling pretty good that people in the building are starting to trust me as the medical authority around here, and are coming to me with some really important questions. The problem is, I am strongly considering leaving after this year because I have moved and my drive is now 40+ miles each way. I feel like it is a shame that it took this long to gain their trust and respect, then I will have to start over somewhere else. I also feel a little guilty about "leaving them", although I know the other nurses in my district are fully capable (and most have more experience than myself!) Plus, the school nursing opportunities in the rural areas around my new home are fiercely guarded, and someone practically has to die before there is an opening. So, I am looking at a new career direction if I leave...but I still school nursing.

Just feeling a little sad and proud at the same time and wanted to share.