After losing an ageism law suit to Long Island Jewish Health and Hospital System, a massive stroke that left my mother in a classic case of "locked-in-Syndrome, and my wife 's promising career as a physician with the Kaiser Organization compromised by a diagnosis of Non-Hodgkin's disease, I stopped looking for a full time job as a nurse and resumed what I have been doing for over twenty years, private tutoring, all through studies as PhD student in Critical Theory and English Literature at UCI. However, I continued my real passion,nursing, by tutoring students in the four sciences needed to get into nursing programs
, as well as standardized test prep and NCLEX prep, the much feared beast at the end of the nursing school
regime. I presently live in California, where I continue to tutor Anat & Phys, microbiology, NCLEX, etc, but everyday I ask myself why I am not renewing my RN registration. Can you tell me how I can re-register and pursue my dream of working as an RN?
In the interest of brevity, I forgot to mention that after passing NCLEX I sat out the year looking for work and tutoring full time to pay the bills. I wanted to bridge into the BSN program at Stony Brook on savings rather than borrowed cash. The following year I followed my fellow graduates into the Stony Brook BSN program. I became friendly with a former professor who was a professor there, a clinical director of nurse PhD candidates, the hardest working person I have ever met and a mentor of sorts who encouraged me. As a lifelong distance runner I did not seem to notice that running a 10K three times a week, assuming management of the rooming house I lived in, and continuing to tutor was a rather unsound health regime. In short I was blind to bouts of sleep deprivation and the like. In my own defense I can offer only a weak but honest defense. Withal, I was never happier, never more physically fit, and never more confident that the nursing course I saw myself on was good--and I dare to say--a form of transcendence. Oddly, for an intelligent fellow It never occurred to me to put my RN status into inactive mode until I finished school and started working on the books. On the other hand, I am sure that anyone who has ever run a marathon knows that one does not take on that race to come in first or even to absolutely finish. Distance running lets a person in on an important insight--that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. The open secret of a marathon is that loving one's powers of endurance and will is fraught with hubris and a fool's wealth of arrogance. However, it offers to this confirmed atheist a god otherwise absent. I run because I can. I still want to be an RN because I know I would be a good one.