i recently started working at a methadone clinic about 5 months ago. I made a mistake by started this position part time and starting another part time position at a clinic at the same time out of need. So basically I was a new nurse learning two different jobs at once and also working every single day with no days off. Eventually, I realized that I would forget what i was taught in one job and vice versa. It was as if only limited amount of info from each position was able to sink in. Out of frustration I quit my job at the cancer clinic to focus on one. I worked a couple days a wk at the methadone clinic until about 6 weeks ago, where I started full time. I have found to have learned a great deal more since starting full time, I was having alot more 'ah ha' moments, thank god. But apparently the two nurses that I work with have been well, very impatient with me throughout my experience. We work together in a small locked in pharmacy all day, and one who ill call Nancy, is continuously standing over my shoulder while i dose my patients, etc as if she doesnt trust that what i do is correct,even though i triple check my doses before handing them to patients. When the patients information pops up on the screen, she doesnt give me a chance to review it myself to see whats going on with the patient. After one or two seconds she makes comments like "make sure to do it like this' or 'do it this way'. I understand that she just doesnt want me to make a mistake, but its become increasingly annoying since i cant soak in the patients info as fast as she can, as shes been there longer, so shes quicker than me. She finds things faster and is constantly correction me in front of my patients. Another thing is there is specific protocols to follow with this position, but if i follow the rules of the facility or of my supervisor, they both make me feel like a horrible nurse. Example: its saturday and a patient comes to my window requesting for a 'take home' dose of methadone. According to protocol, we are not allowed to do so on the weekends.. Patient has a tantrum and yells "youre the only nurse that doesnt do it! i want my take homes!" Nancy right away comes to my window and i get reprimanded for not giving this patient his take homes. This happens almost every day, with a different scenario. I get yelled at by a patient for being the only nurse that does what she's told.
Recently we discovered we had med errors (we were over by 25 mg and short by 35 mgs which means two patients were accidently overdosed by 10 mg and two others were underdosed by 10mg) Of course, as usual, it was insinuated that i made the mistake, not her (which ive seen with my own eyes how they make mistakes constantly, but anyway) Immediately the other nurse started digging IN THE GARBAGE CAN FULL OF USED METHADONE BOTTLES. she stated 'we have too good of a variance record, i know how to fix this' (which they make mistakes all the time and 'know how to fix it' so theres not variance) She says she's gonna fill two used 25 mg bottles with 35 mgs each and give it to two unsuspecting patients tomorrow. Now i understand that nurses sometimes fix situations like these in order to avoid a variance and thats just reality, but to INTENTIONALLY overdose two of my patients with USED bottles? I couldnt do it. I said i preferred the variance. Am i wrong? What would you do in this situation?