Once again I look to the wisdom that the allnurses community has to offer.
The situation: I've been a nurse for about a year now. I'm driven, organized, focused, caring, and I'll just come out and say that I'm a pretty good nurse. I've got a lot to learn and I'm open to learning it, I know when to ask questions and I suck up advice and info from everyone at work like a sponge. My point in saying this is not to toot my horn, but to illustrate the fact that though I'm a new nurse I'm very capable and generally confident.
Ever since I heard that being a psych np was a job it got my attention as something I could love to do.
Right now I work in ltc for both early and late stage alzheimers/dementia units. The early tends to be more about managing therapeutic relationships with the pts and the behaviors. The late stage floor is more medical, and more like hospice. I dread te medical aspect of my job. I would much rather be supporting patients emotionally or educating families than executing and endless med pass and measure pressure ulcers and documenting utis.
I've tried to get work in a psych hospital but this economy blows and it's just not happening where I live right now.
I've been accepted to a psych np masters. It's a big commitment money and timewise.
I've been wavering back and forth about deferring for a year. I really believe I'll love doing it. But the lack of experience in psych and those giant student loans in particular scare the crap out of me. Honestly the money scares me more than anything.
But when I think about doing anything else, when I think about waiting another year to start my dream "just to be sure this is the right decision" I feel miserable.
Is it wrong to take the leap of faith without working in psych when the rest of my brain and heart -thinks- I'll love it without any experience to back it up? Would it be impulsive and foolish to just go for it like I want to? My fear is that i start and regret my decision when there are so many areas of nursing I've yet to try... And yet so far that is the only area I've ever felt like I will love.
I keep being reminded that the np masters is "a big commitment" and I "don't want to get pegged into a field of nursing I might not like".
But you know what. When I decided to become a nurse I had absolutely no medical field experience. I took the leap of faith starting nursing school too. And I haven't regretted it at all.
So what does my anonymous Internet nurse peer think? Jump? Or linger at the edge?
Thank you for taking the time to read and respond friends.