Quote from margo123
I've been working one day a week for the past eighteen months helping administer ECT. ...Hope this helps and the best of luck to you.
I am so SHOCKED to see so much positive feedback!
Well I have had improvement since my initial post, I think the prospect of the treatment scared me out of my funk for a minute or two, LOL!
I have hx of a suicide attempt (razor blades) in 85, no attempts since, altho in the past few months I get this flash of anger at myself and then BOOM, see myself shooting myself in the head with a gun - definitely blame myself for my illness. Yes I am safe and no I don't have a plan and yada yada (LOL)
Borderline was ruled out in 85 - I am a recovering alcoholic and had many successful years as a nurse (although not always back to back!)
I do have bipolar illness, mostly the depressive side, at first they said it was bipolar II because it seemed the SSRI's were guilty for the mania. Now they have upgraded me to bipolar I, yipee!
I would do ok if I didn't have to leave the house, organize things, do housework, interact with people. Initially with this relapse (Oct 2003) it was mostly major anxiety with depression, now I am too depressed to be anxious...
ANY way, thank you all so much for helping me. I will play it by ear - I may just go back to Lithium and Prozac which helped for a while and see how it goes.