I'm not sure what to do. I'm currently a pre-nursing student and have a year of pre-reqs. left before applying to clinicals. The reason that I am becoming a nurse is because my husband wants me to. Now please don't get me wrong he's a kind and loving man. He just has his heart set on this. However, I absolutely HATE everything about what nursing requires. I don't want to be a guinnea pig in clinicals (which is required at the school in my area). I don't want to do IV's on anyone or let a student practice on me. I know this sounds stupid but I have a paralyzing fear of needles. Even looking at one causes me to hyperventilate so giving shots is out of the question. I don't want to see anyone die. I don't want to be responsible for anyone's life or death decisions. What is the real killer is that I'm on the Dean's List and have A's in all my pre-nursing classes. I feel awful that I don't want to fufill his dreams and also terrible that someone else would love to have my place in class. I know if I tell him this it'll destroy him. I have a kind heart and hate to see anyone suffer and medicine interests me but I just don't know what to do.