dijmart! you make me laugh!!
i start bsn school in jan. i have had to do a lot of soul searching on my journey. i went to college and got degrees in biology, pre med and broadcasting. i had hoped to be someone like oprah one day with my tv work... touch people's lives, educate them, inspire them and so forth. tv runs in my family. dad had worked with some big names back in the 1960's... the rolling stones, pres. nixon and on. i was good in broadcasting, and had done a mariott of broadcasting work.. from radio news host to newspaper writer to tv producer as side jobs, but was never given a break to be a full time reporter. i tried for many years and always took the "shlepper" jobs at the media outlets to work my way up... but was never given a shot. i had scheduled meetings with the news directors and publishers and got no where. it has been a very long road for me. i have been trying to make a living at this for over 10 years. so at 34 and only making $10 an hour, part time... this was no future. i recently worked at a local tv station in a fairly large market and saw the "big dogs".. the anchors on a regular basis. i think it was worse knowing i could do it and being around them and never given any chance to try. so i prayed a lot and said "ok god... where am i going??? guide me. i asked what am i doing. how can i impact people, help them, educate them?? i want to make a positive difference!" i really liked the tv field, and had hoped to impact viewers in a postive way. i finally realized, this was not
going to happen. that hit me like a ton of bricks. i had run into so many brick walls. i had tried for over 10 years to make it and here i was. no where. so... my sacrifice, i guess if you want to call it that, was leaving one dream behind to start another. i shed many a tear and found myself running into church on a regular basis. there is an expression i have heard "when you are down on your knees, isn't that the best time to pray?" i guess i felt like i really could have done it, but no breaks and no one cared. who was i?? no one who needed
to care, cared. they could not see that i wanted to make a positive difference. oprah is one of my heros.
i had always loved the field of medicine (hence the two degrees in school and had planned
on being a doc., but went the route of tv which my mom said i was nuts seeing what dad had gone through). so after lots
of prayers, tears, deep thinking and talking with my family and my own doctors (i am a heart patient).. i am venturing into the world of nursing.
i have this feeling that i will be great at it. i am a patient, i already know a decent amount about medicine, i am detailed, and organized. with my prior broadcasting skills, i write and speak fairly well. as a patient, i feel i can really relate to my patients. i also got very ill a few years ago and ended up on life-support. it took me three years to recover from the illness. i lost everything, i mean everything... both jobs, house, etc. but came back a fighter. i hope to inspire hope in the lives i touch as a nurse. as a heart patient, i have already done some pr work for the american heart assocaition using my skills in broadcasting. i will incorporate all of my broadcasting skills into my new field as a nurse. in fact, i have already been approached by them to work as a lobbying activist once i become an rn. see! i was not able to be an oprah, but i can use my new skills to be an oprah for the betterment of my patients and the nursing profession. who knows what the future holds, but it looks bright!!
one door closes and another opens.. :angel2:
wish me luck!! e