Yup you heard me, it sucks :angryfire. I applied to my program almost 6 months ago, this is maybe a month now that my application has been completed. I called today to find out the status of my application, and I was told the same thing I was told last week, my app is with the chairperson, and if they approve my app i'll be called for an admissions interview.
I can't sleep, my apartment is unliveable, and i can't function.
Well no more
I have decided that I will not drive myself crazy anymore, I have to be confident that I did the best I could, everything is out of my hands now and worrying myself half to death doesn't help and checking my cellphone every second of the day doesn't help either (as my granma (R.I.P) use to say "a watched pot never boils
One of my patients told me today to relax and let it go, that giving myself a stroke won't make them call any faster and that she was confident they will call. So if everyone is confident that I will get in (and by everyone i mean my patients, my nurses, my mom, my best friends, even the allnurses crew) why aren't I confident in myself? And you know what, if i don't make it in, i'll cry, be upset, be embaressed and be disappointed, then i just have dust myself off and try again.
Of course all of this is easier said than done, but from now on, no more checking my school's website fifty times a day (welll okay maybe just once
this is a slow process ya know!!) no more reading past students post, no more stareing at random pics of current students in their uniforms, no more nuttiness, I get friday off from work this week and its spring cleaning time.
Lets see how long this lasts tee hee