Hi everyone. I am so confused on what to do right now it's not even funny. So here it goes!
I have three kids ages 4, 2 and 1. For the most part they are good, but my 1 year old is the most challenging. He is getting ready to walk soon! My 2 year old has vesicoureteral reflux of her kidneys so I am expecting surgery for her sometimes in the future. My 4 year old has strabismus and sees her eye doctor usually every 2-3 months and will be getting another surgery here soon too. So as you can see, our plates are mighty full!
Since 2008, I have wanted to go back to school for nursing (this is when my first was born). My hubby said that I could as long as I worked on top of it. Well at this time, I was working 40 hours a week. So I told him I couldn't if I had to still work. Baby #2 came in 2010 so I wanted to go back again and again opted out because now I had 2 children to care for and I was working around 30 hours a week. Baby #3 came in 2011 (wasn't planned) and wanted to start in Spring 2012, but I was forced to quit my job so now I am a stay at home mom. I am happy to be home because my kids are hardly sick and I get the added bonus of spending time with them.
Now that I am 27 years old and I am not getting younger, so many people have told me different things. I was told to go now while the kids are young that way they don't remember it and then you can enjoy them more when they get older. I have been told another to wait and go when they are older that way you don't have to feel guilty of losing time with them while they are young and you will have better study times.
I am enrolled to go this Fall 2012 but I have at least 4 classes to pass before being on the waiting list. Then I have to be on the list for 1 year and I will be able to do clinicals. I have been told the easiest is to take the clinicals by themselves since they are so difficult!
I know the house will not be the cleanest and the laundry will pile up, but that I can sacrifice. I am more scared if one of the children gets sick and I have to go to class for a few hours. My husband works nights right now but he will be on days hopefully within the next year or so. Last year, our children were so sick from stomach flus and we were hit with 2 respiratory flus and RSV. It was aweful! I cannot imagine surviving this while in school. Now that the kids are not in daycare nor a babysitter, they have been very healthy. I am hoping that the 4 months I have had them has helped build up their immunity a little bit.
I know that our school has a zero tolerance policy on tardiness and absences. I don't think you can miss more than 1 day. Now when I get into clinicals, since the kids will be older, I am hoping it will be better. I am expecting that my pre requisites will take me around 2 years or more. I am very fortunate that my college is only 2 mins from my house and this is the main reason why I felt now is the time to go back. Aside from the fact I have no college degree and I really love helping people. I am not in nursing for the money. If I was, I wouldn't go into it because nurses go through hell and they should deserve a better paycheck. My concern lies on my children. Since I won't spend as much time with them, I feel guilty. Then I don't know how I will get studying time in. I can study after the kids are in bed, but they aren't normally in bed until 9pm at the latest. This gives me only about 2 hours of studying time. Now, my 2 and 1 year olds still take naps so I understand I can study during this time, but it is very rare if they nap at the same time. I can study with my two oldest around because normally they are well behaved. Then another thing I have to worry about is getting my oldest ready for kindergarden. She is starting in 2013 and I want to be sure she is ready. Plus my 2 year old needs to start learning things too. My goal was to get crafts for them and learning tools so that they are learning things. But how do I expect to fix breakfast/lunch/dinner, teach my kids, study, do homework, etc.? My parents can help out on the weekends, but during the week is the help I need. Without me working, my hubby works 6-7 days a week and sometimes it is hard to make the house payment (over $1,000/month). I have tried finding a sitter to come to the house but most of the people way overcharge or they want a Mon-Fri job. I can only give them about 3 days a week if that.
Can someone please give me some insight here? I am confused. Should I just go now and start getting the classes out of the way or should I stay home and wait until my kids are older and hopefully we are out of the woods for surgeries? PLEASE HELP ME!