I don't post often, but I just need to get this all out. I'm into my 5th week of school since taking a 15 year break. At 33, I'm starting to wonder where all my brain cells went. I'm working on my pre-req's....psych, bio and eng and last week we had our first test in psych. I studied my butt off. I didn't get my gade back yet, but I know it's a C or low B. I completely froze up like a deer in headlights. Everything I "knew" got all jumbled up inside my head. Amazingly, it un-jumbled as soon as I walked out the classroom door :angryfire and thats how I know already how poorly I did. I'm starting to wonder now if I'm really cut out for this. I know it's only one grade, but I only have 6 classes to take before I apply for my clinicals and my GPA needs to be at least a 3.8 to even get considered (highly competitive program).
And then there's the kids, all 6 of them. I've been snowed in with them since Tuesday and my classes have been cancelled as well. I stupidly thought I could take these days to really get some schoolwork done. Alas, that is not going to happen. I am interrupted every 5 minutes at least. When they are not bugging me I have to hear them yelling and fighting, stomping around the house or the phone ringing. My husband is supportive but he works until late and by the time he gets home and I get everyone fed I'm so exhausted. I've threatened to move on campus, that's how bad it's getting.
Ok, I could write a whole book on this so I'll just quit now. Thanks for letting me vent.