Back just to vent for a minute. Since the people that have read this thread know that I was dropping my Comp 2 class because I wasn't prepared for it, I feel this is the best place to talk about this.
I did go see an Advisor today to drop Comp 2. I haven't attended in a while, and I was under the impression that I had a failing grade in the class because the teacher told me (in front of other students) that he threw away my essays because I didn't use proper MLA format. I found out today that this was a bluff. Apparently he was using me to make an example to the rest of the class. So I dropped Comp 2 with an A+ (teacher grades on a Canadian grading scale, 90-100 A+, 80-89 A, 70-79 B, 60-69 C, 50-59 D, below 50 F). That's right, an A+. The teacher proceeded to tell me that he was about to have to drop me with a WF because of my absences, but that if I had just started showing up for class, I would likely have finished out the semester with a minimum of an A. He went into further detail, telling me that my command of the English language was one that he had not seen since the last college he taught at (can't remember where, but it was one of those 50k+ student campuses), and even then only by English majors. He told me that if I decided to change my major to English, he wanted me in every class he taught because my writing could be used as an example to the rest of the students. I explained to him, again, that I was dropping because of my lack of ability to fully understand poetry. He said that if I would take Comp 2 with him again next semester (when I won't be working as much and will have more time to read), he will personally tutor me with the poetry section. He feels that I am a great candidate for a teaching degree (we spoke about my change in major, which I did today) and will personally write me a recommendation for a job once I complete my degree.
So this old coot, who I thought hated me, not only likes me, but according to his own words, admires me and my passion for bettering myself. I asked him why he chose to single me out, telling everyone in class that he had thrown away my essays. He said I was the one student he thought could handle that being said and that he thought I would come by his office to talk to him after class. However, I felt dejected. I dropped my head in shame and just quit going to class. Afterall, what was the point? I was sure that I had broken some holy rule on writing by forgetting my work-cited page, and in all honesty to most other teachers, I probably would have. But this "doctor" (I only consider the letters MD and DVM to be REAL Doctors) saw beyond that, saw the perception it took to write what I did, and graded me accordingly. It is just unfortunate that I had already registered the drop with the Registrar's office and only came by his office to let him know out of courtesy.
I WILL be taking Comp 2 under this same professor next semester. This man has made an impact on my life with his kind words (which seems unusual coming from him). I wish, now, that I hadn't been so hasty as to drop this course without talking to him privately. But I felt it was the best thing to do, based on the information I was given. I was a pawn in his game of chess, used as an example without being a true example. Yes, he told us the first day of class that he is a mean sonofa...well, you know. But I didn't take him for an underhanded person. I didn't take him for the type to deceive an entire class by saying one thing while recording something else entirely.
On another note, yes, I changed my major today. And I feel as if the weight of the world has been lifted off of my shoulders. I am sticking it out with the rest of my nursing pre-reqs, since a couple of them have some use in classes I will be taking later. For instance, if I can pass AP2, I will be exempt from Animal AP my Junior year. My Nutrition class will help with a couple of my livestock classes because of my understanding of calories, carbohydrates, amino-acids, fatty acids, etc. But, for now, I will be seeking a BS in Agricultural Education instead of a BSN. And I know that there will always be a part of me that will regret not getting a medical degree. But there are things I can do about that. I have considered getting a basic EMT license and running with the hospital on the weekends, just for mad money. And if I become an Agri teacher and just have to do something medical, I can attend a local CC's evening classed LPN school for 18 months while I continue to teach. So all is not lost if that is where my path leads me at a later date.