Quote from wcu_nurse
how do you think you could have prevented this from happening? i'm going to be starting at duke in the end of june and i will be on the pediatric medical stepdown unit with hem/onc pts. i'm really looking forward to it and am getting tired of people asking me how i could take such a depressing job out of college. i'm going into it for the smiles and the difference i'm going to make. it's where my heart is.
let me know what you would have done differently k? meanwhile, keep your head up, today was harder than tomorrow will be. you make a difference. it's not about you or your co-workers, it's about the kids. they need you.
i assume you mean the emotional part of it (as the other things, staffing and morale, are kind of out of my control). i'm not quite sure, to be honest. maybe it's just me. there are some nurses (actually quite a few) that have been there for many years, and full time at that. i was never fulltime at this place, and now i'm per-diem (doing it in small doses definitely helps- i would have been burnt to a crisp if i was ft!!) i ask the 'senior' nurses how they've handled it for so many years. they basically say they try not to think about it (which is what i used to do) and just 'do their job'. for the first 2-3 yrs, i saw a number of children die, and hardly cried. sure, i was upset, but i kept saying to myself, we did all we could, and it was in gods hands at this point. obviously, certain kids affect me different than others.
yesterday i took care of a high risk all (new dx). after torturing this poor little thing with po meds, mouthcare and an im chemo shot, all i could think is, he's probably going to die anyway (i took care of 2 others that i got close to, that had the same high risk, that did not make it). i guess i think about it too much.
not a good thing,but human nature, i guess.
btw besides that emotional issue i tackled with yesterday, it was otherwise a decent day (good staffing does make a difference!!)