So, I'm just curious, how much time did you get before you were able to "run" your room? I have been bounced around in general, some lap's, some open; some gyn lap, robotic, and open. I reach my 90 day (start day to 90 day mark) at the end of Jan. During the 90 day period, I was off (because I'm still in training they didn't want me working since it was "slow") for thanksgiving, christmas, new years, and eight days due to an on the job injury. In addition, to alot of videos, books, and computer classes, and other random things they had me doing.
Long story short, I have an estimated 21 days actual "intra-op" in the suites. Split among, a few bits and pieces of cysto, robot, gyn, and more general (i.e. lap chole *sp). At this point my educators feel that I should "run" my room, with help when needed from a preceptor. So, basically, I'm not ready. ttt
I do not know all of the various bits, parts, attachments, varieties of all of the lap equipment, the harmonic, the ligasure, etc, etc. I feel that I have made progress daily, although I never have the same preceptor (about 5-6) different people, telling me their version of what is crucial and what is not. I am supposed to chart my peri-op doc and all of the pick list in under 15 minutes. Nevermind, knowing what the 5-6 (at least) different surgeons require for gloves, music, sutures, and how they prefer the such and such.
So regardless of my best efforts, I HATE the OR and I feel incompetent. My manager wanted me to prove that in the next 10 working days I can, completely run my room, including pt. check in, room set up, all the way til transfer. I should also know that when a stupid piece of equipment doesn't work, I am to fix it. regardless the problem or my familiarity with the machine. I am constantly getting conflicting feedback, everything is an oxymoron.
So, the second time my NM called me into his office, they said they would like to see me succeed, whether it be in the OR or somewhere else in the hospital (in ten days working time). So I was honest, I don't like the OR, I am not the type of person who wants to cater to a surgeon, do very little patient care except during induction and emergence, and learn to assemble and maintain multitudes of equipment. I believe I am in the wrong area. According to my supervisors, everyone else runs the room this fast. I was under the impression that the OR was a very difficult area to learn, requiring the longest training along with areas like ICU.
My NM stated they would help me, or try to help me find another area of the hospital that might suit me. So I told them I would like to find another area, but Im not sure If I should have just buckled down, lied about how much I "love" the OR and killed myself to prove I want to be in the suites. I may have shot myself in the foot by being honest because I really need a job. *sigh...
It is hard to face the reality that I failed, or at least I feel like a failure. Thank you everyone in advance for your reply.