A little backgroud on myself:
I graduated in May 2011 with my BSN. My first nursing job was as a full time float nurse and an amazing experience. I was able to float to various units including telemetry, surgical, ortho, medical, and acute rehab and learned a great amount. After 6 months the director of the ED asked that I come work for here and I very gladly accepted. I fell in love with my job more than I expected and was content professionally.
Personally, I needed a change for different reasons. When a friend of mine asked if I'd move with her to California I jumped at the offer. A month later I was on a one-way flight with a job offer to work on an Oncology unit. This floor is mainly surgical oncology with occasional chemo patients and medical overflow. I love being a nurse, spending time with my patients, getting to know their stories, and always strive to make them smile during my shift.
However, this has also proved to be a problem for me. Often times we get end-of-life patients, where their surgeries are more palliative than anything else. We can have these patients for months at a time. I get SO attached and involved, and it's beginning to wear on me. I just went back home for the first time since moving here, and I kept finding myself wondering how my patients were doing. I would love to be one of the amazing, strong, caring oncology nurses, but it's too much for me. Don't get me wrong, I am very compassionate and care very deeply about my patients and the care I given them, but therein lies the problem.
I have been on this unit for 4 months now and am unsure of what to do. Do I talk to my manager (who is my friend's aunt) and ask to be moved to a different unit? Do I search for another job altogether? I am worried not only about the fact that it could make things awkward since I know her personally, but also because I don't want to be a job-hopper.
If anyone has any advice, similar past experiences/posssible solutions, ANYTHING