I'm a brand spankin new nurse and I work on an oncology unit. I'm pretty freaked every time I go to work and I dream about working post partum. I never thought I'd want to go that route but it seems like a lot less stress. Is this true? Maybe I'm just freaked no matter where I work, I don't know, all I know is our patients are really sick and I'm scared all the time. I go in an hour early every shift to prep my night, I mean I time out all my meds, I look ahead to see if I'll be giving injections to research which size needle to use, look up all the meds, time out my checks, who to assess first, I try to pretty much prep my whole shift. I feel insane and I'm always wondering if I'm normal. I forget a lot of things really easy so I have a small pocket notebook to keep notes to remind me how to do things or even remind me about little things like which gauge needle to use for iv starts. It almost feels like nursing school
was a big blur the way work makes me feel. I've dreamed for so many years about becoming a nurse and now that its a reality I question the decision a lot. I often wonder if I'm really cut out for the profession, if I'm smart enough and if maybe I'm just in the wrong specialty. Anybody got any thoughts?