I read my first post again, and think it's too harsh to convey what I wanted to say.
I AM SORRY THIS HAPPENED TO YOU.
I AM SORRY THERE ARE PLACES LIKE THIS, AND ANYONE CAN END UP IN A PLACE LIKE THIS, CULTURES CHANGE ALL THE TIME.
I DO NOT THINK YOU ARE A BAD NURSE, LAZY NURSE, or UNSAFE NURSE.
NO ONE COULD BE SAFE EVEN WITH 30 WALKIE TALKIE PATIENTs. I KNOW THATs NOT THE CASE
GOES OUT TO YOU AND OTHERS IN THE SAME POSITION. I AM SO GLAD YOU HAVE THE COURAGE TO BE THE MASTER OF YOUR OWN FATE, YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE TREATED AS A PROFESSIONAL, and GIVEN A HUMANE ASSIGNMENT TO CARRY OUT EACH SHIFT.
I WISH YOU THE BEST AND ALL THE BLESSINGs OF THE WORLD OUT THERE!!!!