Twenty days ago I was placed on administrative leave during an investigation of an error I made. The patient was not harmed. I was given a written warning that the union and I have decided to file a grievance against. I acknowledge my shortcoming but there were no orders and there was a miscommunication from the doctor. I was told to go back to work ten days ago. Then two days ago my manager talked to me because I apparently made another mistake. They had concerns about a patient I took care of who was on a vasoactive drip. The mistake I made was not charting on time and not writing down every detail about how I managed this patient. I am now suspended again. The patient was also not harmed. They felt that I should not be in this unit and that all these things are too complicated for me. I will be meeting with them again on Monday and I honestly feel like it won't turn out in my favor.
I have only been a nurse for two years and the last meeting with management made me feel like a lousy nurse. Has anyone been in a similar situation before? Has anyone ever doubted themselves? How do you cope with the stress? If the worst situation happens (termination) will I be able to find a job? Should I just quit being a nurse? Has anyone ever been told by their manager/director of nursing that they are not good enough?