'Also the students are pure evil. I feel like I am teaching a group of 7 year olds and not adults that are in college and paying money out of pocket to be there'.
I am little bit worried about this sentence.. Students are never evil because they need something and you have it .. now it is your turn to find the way how to give them what they are looking for and at the same time make them to climb that mountain where you put that precious pearl.
Teaching is not an easy job..All those who say "if you can not do it , go teach" are not realistic or they never thought anyone . I can not help you how to deal with your school people .. one way is to run .. but your ultimate goal is I guess to teach ..So, if you get better in organizing yourself and your system of teaching then you will be more confident in yourself and will not need an approval from any of those "all mighty 18 century teachers" .
So , good way is to define your philosophy of teaching, define what you see in students ( never see evil!) ,define what is your ultimate goal in teaching , see how all that fits with your goals in life before you just run. Running is the easiest part in life, staying and looking into bull's eye is what you might be able to do but you could be scared as every normal person .
I am not saying do this or that but I could feel your confusion .. As some said , in teaching there is always those who would try to belittle you or make you feel stupid haha how else they can feel as "academia" . .. Thanks God there is not soo many of those and I hope we will weed them off from any school. And, I still do not understand , you took position that requires MSN , and then you drop the MSN because you can not do it both?? MSN is what you NEED so that you can run better when times comes, so if you can not finish MSN with them then you do no need them . (They obviously needed your body but not your soul
Good luck to you . I love students, I love everything about them when I see in their eyes how much they would like to run but they still stay with me , when they come to tell me that they pass the test , or that their grandmother is dying , when..
I hope you will have strength to connect with them .. Those souls need your guidance.:heartbeat