I'm burned OUT. I'm so tired of politics in the workplace, namely CLICKS! I have busted my butt for years to be treated like a robot.
I am working in a PACU and many nurses are so young, and some are just plain old mean. They go to the manager about things that don't matter, or could be discussed between them and the person they are angry at. Today i got written up because i accidently an unused syringe on the bed. She didnt mention that it was unused, just I LEFT A SYRINGE on the bed. I dont think she thought i'd get into trouble, but i did and there was nothing to be said because said gossiper wouldnt cop to the fact it was brand new empty syringe (the same kind they let kids play with)
So here i am AGAIN. I got introuble at my last job because a seasoned nurse who had worked at our hospital was about to be put on peer review for something that never happened. I was there that night and witnessed what did happen and tried to tell everyone who would listen. He is the kindest gentlest nurse i know. Anyway 3 of us got put on final, for things that shouldnt have even been a warning. Funny how all three of us were to appear at peer review as witnesses for him. When i turned in my notice (i wasnt going to sign the write up) i asked if i was rehirable, thinking i'd come back in 6 months. Yes they said, but i was blacklisted (see group 1 threads in texas)
I was lucky this pacu offered me a job, but i cant take it anymore. I've been called lazy, lacking self confidence and that i don't get it. Pahleez. I can run circles, but get irritated when the day shift leaves me alone to recover patients so they can have thier second lunch break (dinner). They are only allowed 1 30 minute dinner per shift, but they think they all need another break. THen they get mad when i ask if i can go to the cafeteria before it closes ( i work nights) to grab something to eat later. I was told i should bring my lunch.
I really want to work at home, or in an office setting. I'm an ADN and 50 yrs old. So many people want BSN only and I really dont want to go back to school. I would have 9 prereq's and 2 years of classes..its almost like a do over. Just dont want to do that. I'd like to retire in 10 yrs..do not want to spend 5 of them in school part time.
Does anyone have a listing of bigger companies or any ideas of other jobs an older RN can do? Most if not all of my experience is in pediatrics. Honestly no drug company will higher a 50 yr old 40lb overwieght RN to pedal thier drugs. They like 30 yr old skinny girls lol.
Seriously Ive been crying all morning. I just feel like a failure here and being put on group one is preventing me from gaining employment at any hospital in the area i live in in texas. Forgive the typing, like i said i've been up all night and crying all morning.