You may be better suited for management, school nursing, an MD's office, case management, lots of things that perhaps at your 2 year mark you can begin applying for. Bedside nursing is not for everyone. And I love the idea of doing nursing school
clinicals or even teach a class(!) and if it is for a local college, you can often take classes for little to no tution, therefore, can get your masters and do something entirely different. (NP perhaps?). Lots of choices, and really concentrate on perfecting your clinical skills, at the least think about what you love about nursing, and perhaps certify in that area (hospice, wound care, IV's) so that you can then have choices when you decide you would like to make a change (IV team? ER?). Eye on your goal, and yes, it does suck out loud that nurses are run ragged. On your time off it IS ok to nap, read, take a walk, go out with a friend. Regenerate on your time off.
Wishing you nothing but the best!