New hospital RN...hating it

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Hello everyone, first off I just want to explain my situation. I've been an LPN working in a hospital for 2 years now, just got my RN in July and I got a job in the same hospital I was working in. In the beginning when I worked as an LPN in the hospital, I ddn't really like it and was always stressed and anxious going into work. I thought I would like it more being an RN thinking I would have more say and more knowledge on my patients. I am currently training and am 5 weeks in with my preceptor. Right now, I HATE IT...even when I was in school I thought to myself "I don;t want to work in the hospital as an RN" because I always saw how stressed out the RN's were and I never wanted that. The reason why I took the position was because I did get it right away, and thought I was lucky that I got an RN job right away, and I do have bills to pay as well. But at this point I;m just thinking is it worth the stress to be unhappy about going into work? I don;t want to quit but I do want to loom for other jobs but I don;t even know where to start. I want to work somewhere outpatient, or just something with less stress that I would be happy to do! I love the nursing field, I just hate the hospital. The only thing I like is the pay and the hours but I just feel so lost right now, and kind of like a failure. I want to stick it out for a while, but I just know I don't want my nursing future to be in the hospital setting. And, if I leave now I don't want that to look bad on resume if I leave too soon, is this true? I just really don't like the stress they put on us in the hospital where you are supposed to know everything about your patient, but when it's so busy how is that possible? I feel like I quickly forget things about my patients and I'm not confident in my assessment skills either, I feel like I do the basic assessments but I'm not getting the big picture about my patients and I feel petrified to be on my own in the end. Going from LPN is a little easier than no experience at all, but I hate having all the responsibility.Sorry to vent so much, but I am in dire need of some advice :unsure:

i felt goos after reading your post amd the responses you got from others. everyword you mentioned are all true and i also felt the same way. everytime i woke up and know that i am going to work that day makes me sick. one time i felt like i am depress, anxious and nervous breakdown. i also thought of going to a psych or therapist co i am not happy anymore of what's going on with me. i dont know what to do as well. thinking of changing a career too. actually i just posted few minutes ago regarding what im feeling. i wish you all the best.

Have you thought about talking to a therapist about your anxiety? I am currently waiting to get into nursing school and working at a job I hate. I am on a wait list at one school and the other schools in my area are lottery style selection. I know for sure I will start nursing school in THREE YEARS when my wait list number is set to come up or I could get lucky in the lottery before that. However, about three months ago when I started this job and realized that I would be working here for about three years if I don't get lucky in the lottery, I developed extreme anxiety and I had never had anything like that before. I started seeing a therapist and after my second session, she really helped me to get my head on straight and feel better. After my fourth visit I felt like me again. I had a better outlook on my situation and I am finally thinking positively again! And, I actually have found things about my job that aren't so bad! :) I would suggest talking to someone professional, sometimes you just need a stranger to listen and build you up!

Thanks for all your responses, I am at the end of my orientation and next week I will be on my own. I feel slightly more at ease with the routine, and I am starting to feel less anxious. I actually did see a therapist because I've had anxiety in the past and now it's been ten times worse since I've started this new job lol. So the therapist has definitely helped me already and I've noticed I feel less anxious at work and the days that I'm off. I still feel nervous before going in and when I am unfamiliar with a situation at work. I really appreciate what everyone has posted and I know that I just have to give it some time before I start to feel more confident. I'm taking it day by day for now but it has definitely improved ?

Hello Natalie I'm a new grad and I am feeling the same exact way you did back in 2012, may I ask what you decided to Do? Did you stick it out? I'm in the process of training and I'm so stressed and unhappy....I'm not sure what I should do either

Hello Natalie I'm a new grad and I am feeling the same exact way you did back in 2012, may I ask what you decided to Do? Did you stick it out? I'm in the process of training and I'm so stressed and unhappy....I'm not sure what I should do either

OMG Socks! This is making my heart so happy right now to look back on this...DO NOT GIVE UP! Trust me it gets better! I have now been and RN for 4 years, currently work in SICU and have worked in open heart, cardiac, etc. I couldn't even think of doing something else, and I am actually going back to school for my NP :) so please please don't give up! I had anxiety issues back then as well, and about 4 months into working as an RN I spoke with my therapist who aleviated a lot of that anxiety. But trust me, the training in the beginning is the hardest part and you may feel like you want to give up but just stick it out, you can do it! You became a nurse for a reason. I always tell new grads my story because I know the feeling...hope that helped!! Sending positive thoughts.

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