I am a year away from graduating as a registered nurse (in Australia). I'm hopeful for your wisdom as to which areas of nursing might involve lower levels of grief, particularly with families. I do enjoy the hospital environment over community and primary care. However, perhaps the "acuteness" of hospital environments is the problem.
I work in a large animal hospital (theatres, ICU, recovery, ER and a range of specialties with MRIs, CTs, telemetry, etc - pretty much as advanced as a human hospital).
I'm finding myself in tears a lot. Carrying little bodies while I'm racing them to into ER, whilst they die in my arms is really upsetting. Seeing animals in severe states of suffering because their owners mostly are genuinely ignorant to the signs of illness is heartbreaking. And the families - looking into their grief stricken eyes, comforting them through their loss, talking through cremation/burial options, is starting to make me cry with them. I think this is what truly gets me. I've been doing this for over a year now. I'm starting to doubt that I will cope in a human hospital and am worried I'm too sensitive before I even embark on my career.
What areas do you suggest I try to get into? I've only been in theatre once, orthopaedics. Recovery seemed like more my cup of tea than theatre though. Although it might have been the style of surgery that didn't appeal (apart from the scrub nurse, everyone else was just sitting around waiting for it to be over, on their phones. I think I'd be bored to tears. Is it always like this?).
Elective post op care seemed less distressing, but a bit less autonomy than what might interest me long term. What else would you recommend?
Keen for your thoughts. TIA.